I do not own Twilight. This will start off (slightly) canon around New Moon, but will be AU from there.
“Something on your mind, darlin’?” Jasper questioned but with a touch of a smirk.
Not only could he see the blush coming off those rosy cheeks of hers, but he could ‘feel’ it. This had been going on for weeks now, at least on her end. His? Well damn near two years. And tried as he might, he couldn’t ignore it. Not after knowing she felt the same. It took a lot of focus, keeping this out of Edward’s head and out of that future mindset of Alice’s. But he couldn’t control his feelings, no more than Bella could. He knew the more time they spent with one another, the greater the risk. He had Edward and Alice believing he couldn’t stand to be near Bella because of her scent alone and the fact that he was the most feral one out of the coven, when that couldn’t be further from the truth. If anything… it drew him in and had since he’d first laid eyes on her. It carried from across the cafeteria and wrong as it was he remembered getting aroused and to the point where Alice herself sensed it. She hadn’t a clue what caused it and honestly believed it to be her doing. It took all will as he shrugged it off and sent Alice a flirtatious wink, in hopes of avoiding a very awkward argument. Awkward – as in Alice was his wife and the human was the girl of his youngest brother’s dreams, or so he claimed. Edward often enough forgot about Jasper’s ability and he was getting all kinds of reads, when it came to Edward and Bella.
She was too adorable for words. He loved how she’d get all flustered and stumble on her words around him. But there was a touch of guilt all the same. Not so much in the sense of Edward, but Bella. His gift of empathy picked up on her guilt alone and it was enough to floor even him. Thus going back to that pathetic brother of his… Edward didn’t deserve someone like Bella. Not that he did, still… Bella needed a real man. Edward was stuck in that seventeen forever mentality, which often enough did him in when it came to Bella. Bella was just a couple days shy of being 18, yet there were times Jasper swore she was more mature than that of his century old brother. He’d grown too concerned with keeping up this childlike mentality and he expected Bella to do the same. All that BS about saving her soul etc… When truth of the matter? Edward as scared out of his fucking mind. Scared – of what would become of his precious Bella Swan if he ever gave into her “wildish” ways, or turned her even. Wildish… That alone had Jasper laughing amongst himself. Bella was just like any other teenage girl when it came to that. Of course she didn’t wish to remain a virgin throughout the rest of high school, yet Edward insisted. If it hadn’t been for Alice, Jasper would’ve made that offer a while back. The mere thought had him tight below the belt and sensing her, didn’t help matters. She was chewing on that bottom lip of hers and covering up the best she could.
“Jasper… It’s not that I don’t like you being here.”
“But…” He asked behind a sigh of mere frustration.
Once again… This only proved that Edward didn’t deserve her. Jasper could pick up on her breathing and heart pattern. She truly feared Edward’s reaction if he were to walk in and see the two in this intimate of a setting. Bella was in her usual tank top and panties. Sure, she’d the covers over her. Still, that didn’t stop his mind from wandering, nor did it hers. It was intense… And the more time passed, the harder it became for Jasper to merely ignore it. It would be something if it were one sided, but that wasn’t the case. If anything, he was just as intense when it came to her. He wanted her in a bad way. So much so that he often enough forgot Alice even existed or that he was even married. He wanted nothing more than to rip those covers off her and show her what a real lover felt like.
“It was just a kiss…” She whispered.
This girl’s emotions were all over the place.
“That was no kiss…” He uttered.
“You were unleashed and know it. Come on, lil darlin’. When are you going to admit it?!”
“Admit what?!” She practically hissed.
Jasper reached over and caressed her cheek.
“Don’t… Don’t use that on me.”
He shook his head in protest.
“So much guilt. Why? What has he done to warrant such…” He trailed off as she recoiled from his touch.
Oh Bella… He thought as he could sense her and knew what she really wanted…
“For the same reason you haven’t told Alice…”
Jasper dropped his hand and looked to be in thought.
“Alright. I’ll tell her.” He said with a shrug.
He raised his brows as this had her hopping on out of the covers and nipples ahoy… He thought as her body was pressed up against his and she’d a hand over his mouth.
“We can’t do that to them! Could you imagine?! There’s nothing here. It was a BIG mistake. Jasper, please… I’m so sorry. You must know I’m not normally like that. I don’t know what came over me. I can’t believe I kissed you! A married man, at that! And I’m engaged!”
I’d hardly call myself married… He thought with a resentful scowl. Alice was a cold fish and had been for years. Cold fish when it came to him anyhow. He couldn’t remember the last time they had sex. Sure, she would love on him from time to time. But it felt more like a thing of habit. When Bella kissed him it was like that of literal fire. It spread through his very core and he found himself giving into her in return. He’d never felt anything so intense. If she hadn’t told him to stop, he would’ve fucked her right there. She wanted to him to. That’s what made it even harder to pull away. He could sense how badly she wanted him. Telling him no… Hurt her just as much as it hurt him. But that also earned some respect… Jasper knew how hard that was for her. It was never her intention to cheat on Edward, just as it wasn’t his when it came to Alice. The girl had a big heart and was putting everyone else before her, just as she always had.
“Oh believe me I do…”
“What’s that supposed to mean?”
“Well what do you think it means, lil darlin’?”
“I think you should leave…”
Jasper closed his eyes but nodded in defeat.
“Well alright then…”
Before she could so as much as blink, he was gone. Bella’s heart sank to the pit of her stomach. She didn’t want him to leave. But knew if he didn’t, she’d wind up doing something she couldn’t take back…
Chapter 1 – Fall
“Edward, I thought I made myself perfectly clear…” Jasper heard as Bella and Edward entered the building.
Edward rolled his eyes and was doing his best to avoid the conversation.
“Hey…” Bella called as she came to a stop.
Edward drew back an agitated breath and pivoted back around.
“Are you even listening to me?”
“Yes. But there isn’t much we can do about it now. She went out her way and is really looking forward to this. It would be rude…”
“Rude of me to expect my boyfriend to follow through with my wishes?! I wasn’t aware that today was about Alice…” Bella was quick to cover her mouth and she’d this wide eyed look about her.
She took notice of Jasper as he was standing by his locker. He narrowed his eyes and gave a simple nod, before heading onto class.
“Bella, what’s come over you?!”
Bella swallowed back as she couldn’t believe she’d said that. Sure, she was thinking it. But those weren’t the words she’d meant to say.
“I… Edward, I’m sorry. I don’t know what came over me…”
Edward shook his head in disbelief, but said nothing on it as he headed to class. Alice and Rosalie walked passed and Bella sighed as Alice cut her a hurtful glance.
“Dammit…” Bella whispered.
“Hey, Bella!” Mike called once she entered the class.
“Hey…” She murmured before taking her seat.
“So… Got any plans for your birthday?” He questioned whilst leaning over his desk.
Bella sort of laughed.
“Not anything big.”
“That’s a shame. Eighteen… That’s kind of a big deal.”
“So they say.”
“For reals… Who doesn’t want to celebrate their birthday?”
“Jesus Mike, just let it go already!” Bella said surprising everyone, well almost everyone.
“Are you okay?” Emmett questioned and Bella nodded.
“You seem… different.”
Bella didn’t comment as she excused herself and headed for the ladies room.
“What’s with her?” Alice questioned and Edward shrugged.
Still, he’d that annoyed look about him.
“Just let it go…” Jasper muttered and this had Alice snapping him a look of disbelief.
“Come on, Alice. Give the girl a break.”
“What’s that supposed to mean?!”
This had Jasper looking to Edward in a scolding matter. He just couldn’t help himself. He found himself giving into Alice’s wishes and over that of his own girlfriend. What was that all about anyhow? Jasper found himself wondering. This wasn’t the first and it sure as hell wouldn’t be the last.
“It means that I was right. Bella never wanted a party. It’s not her style.”
“It’ll be okay. You’ll see. Once she sees what I’ve set up for her…” Alice said with that usual chipper air.
Jasper resisted the urge to roll his eyes. What Bella really wanted was a night alone with Edward. She’d hopes of rebuilding what she and Edward once had. Sure it hurt… But in all fairness, Edward was her boyfriend and Jasper… Well he was a married man. He hadn’t any business thinking about a high school girl like that. Still… It wasn’t easy. Even more so when he there was more than lust behind it. There was just something about her. He couldn’t get her out of his head and it fucked with him. Even now… He could sense her. Her emotions were all over the place. To top it off, she was in ‘heat’ so to speak. He could smell her a mile away. That alone messed with his head. He’d the urge to go and check on her but knew better. That was sure to raise suspicions and that’s the last thing the poor girl needed. She had enough on her plate as of late. A few minutes passed before she entered the room once again. She kept to herself and focused on the assignment written on the board. She was so sad. So confused. Jasper wished he could help but he hadn’t a clue how. Bella’s main concern was hurting everyone around them, even that of Jasper. She wouldn’t allow herself to be free and happy for once, out of fear of what it would do to everyone else. Little did she know that he was just as miserable…
“Sorry…” Jasper whispered as Bella let out a bit of a gasp.
“Are you trying to scare me to death?”
He couldn’t help but to smile.
“Is that even possible?” He uttered and pulled the door to as they were in one of the empty classrooms.
The others had headed onto lunch.
“Well… yeah.” She replied as if unsure herself.
Jasper shook his head on this.
“I meant is it even possible to scare YOU to death. It seems as if nothing fazes you.”
“Plenty of things faze me.”
“Name one…” He challenged but with a touch of flirtation.
Something he hadn’t meant as his only reason for pulling her aside was to check and see if she were okay.
“No tonight. Say nineish? That good for you, my lil morsel?”
“Jasper…” She damn near growled and took a step back.
“You can’t say that shit.”
He reared back as he wasn’t used to hearing her cuss. In fact, it was pretty rare. It wasn’t until he backtracked that he realized what he said. He couldn’t help but to get that cocky grin about him knowing it turned her on. Bella pinched the bridge of her nose and that had him ‘pushing’ that empathy of his even more.
“I think we both know.”
“Hmmm.” He hummed.
“Back to what fazes you…”
“They’re expecting us…”
“Bella, it’s just a simple question.”
“No it isn’t. Nothing’s ever simple when it comes to you.”
“I’m plenty simple.”
“Easy maybe…” She taunted and this had Jasper grinning.
“Now how would you know?”
“Jasper…” She hissed in warning.
“Come on, Bella. Name ONE thing that fazes you, more than anything.” He said whilst leaning into her ear.
“You.” She said but was quick to cover her mouth again.
“I mean…” Bella shook her in head in disbelief.
“What the hell?” She said looking downright embarrassed.
Sure she was thinking it but why did she say it?!
“Touché’.” He said without an ounce of sarcasm.
Jasper resisted the urge to kiss her and went with a peck on the cheek instead. She was the ONLY thing that fazed him as of late. This wasn’t something he was used to and hadn’t been in years.
Lunch was about as awkward as you could get. No one was really talking and Jasper kept up that ‘painful’ appearance. However it wasn’t much of an exaggeration as of late. He kept it up at first, so that Alice wouldn’t pick up on his lust for this human girl. But now? Seeing his supposed brother with his girl was driving him mad. To Jasper… It was just a matter of time. All he could do was be patient and wait for one of two things – Edward to fuck up or for Bella to finally see the light, maybe a touch of both. Either way, he’d be there, whenever she was ready. Sure, he’d have to break the bad news to Alice. But he’d seen a lawyer about that already… Bella glanced his direction for a brief moment. Damn girl was on fire. Whatever she was thinking about… It took all willpower not to leap over that table and take off with her. Jasper reached to his head however as he could feel some sort of ‘disturbance’, a rather familiar one, but one he hadn’t felt in years. It was strong enough to cause him physical pain.
“Jasper?” Bella called with concern as he was reaching to his temples.
He lifted his eyes to see Edward eyeing him down.
“Stop that.” He warned and Edward narrowed his eyes like he were challenging him.
Alice tilted her head in wonder and Bella had this look of alarm about her.
“We talked about that.” Jasper made clear.
Edward said nothing as he came to his feet and dumped his tray. Jasper could sense Bella’s nervous twinge as she too came to her feet and followed Edward outside.
“What was that about?” Bella questioned and Edward backed her up against the wall, outside the cafeteria.
She froze as he buried his nose within the crevice of her neck and was breathing her in.
“You smell like him…”
He let out this rather menacing chuckle and shook his head.
“I haven’t been anywhere near Jacob!” She defended knowing he had a big issue when it came to Jacob and the pack in general.
She swallowed back as Edward slapped his hand against the wall.
“I’m not talking about the mutt!”
“What the hell, Edward? Then what are you talking about?!”
“Why were you late to lunch…?”
The others had stepped out by this point. Edward sighed then took her by the hand.
“Edward, you’re hurting me.”
This had Jasper snapping to immediate attention.
“She was with me.” Jasper admitted taking Bella by complete surprise.
“I just wanted to talk to her about something. So there’s no need for that.”
“No need for what?” Edward said behind gritted teeth.
“Edward…” Bella whimpered out and Jasper curled his lip.
“Drop your hand.” He warned and Edward looked down as if he’d forgotten he even had her in his hold.
He was quick to send Bella this apologetic glance. Jasper shook his head however as there was a perfect handprint along her hand and it was starting to swell.
“Bella…” Edward started to say in apology.
“Don’t…” Jasper growled in such a way.
He wrapped his arm around Bella then took it upon himself to find her some ice and see to that hand immediately. The chief was sure to freak if he saw that. Not only that, but he had to distract himself from ripping Edward’s balls off.
Bella lifted her eyes on this and Jasper continued in running the ice along her hand.
“Damn…” He muttered under his breath.
“We better get that wrapped. Just tell the old man you sprang it, so he doesn’t start interrogating you.”
Bella nodded but looked to him in question.
“Why are you apologizing?”
“Because I’m the one that pulled you into the room…”
“Um hello? I’m the one that kissed you, remember?!”’
“But I recall kissing you in return…” He reminded and Bella blushed in response.
Fuck… He thought amongst himself. He couldn’t remember the last time a woman reacted that way to him. It was maddening.
“What did you mean when you told Edward to stop?”
“That was just Edward being… well… Edward.”
“How do you mean?”
“It means that Edward was trying to pry.”
Jasper tossed the ice inside a nearby sink. He had her propped up on the counter of one of the laboratory rooms.
“You mean as in he was trying to get into your head?”
He nodded and Bella looked to Jasper in alarm.
“Relax. I’ve my ways of keeping him out. That being said… I have to ask.”
“Ask me what?”
“Come on, darlin’. Quit repeating everything I say and answer the question.”
“But I don’t understand…”
“You’re miserable and have been for some time. Yet you put on this act. Why?”
“Jasper, I kissed you. Of course I’m miserable.”
“Nah… That wasn’t misery. You enjoyed that and don’t you even deny it. You seem to forget what I’m capable of. So lying… That’s not going to get you anywhere. When I say miserable… I mean with my brother.”
“That’s what I’m trying to tell you. I kissed you… It’s as simple as that. It’s not easy keeping something like that from Edward. He deserves better. This is all my fault.”
“You deserve better. As for that kiss… Bella, I haven’t any regrets, other than you thinking it was a mistake.”
“I don’t have to be…”
And he meant it. Jasper had gone as far as to have divorce papers ready to be served. All he needed was her say and it would be done.
“I’m just saying…”
“That’s so wrong. Alice loves you and Edward loves me!”
“Love?! Alice wanted me and the Cullens got their way. Why do you think THIS is any different? Bella, Edward isn’t in love. He’s obsessed. There’s a big difference.” Jasper reared back on his own words.
It took a lot to shock him. Bella kissing him then damn near ravishing him after? That certainly came as a shock. But what he just said… Was that honestly how he felt?!
“Jasper?” Bella called with concern.
“You should go…” He warned as he could sense Edward at the door.
“Are you alright?”
“Yes. Now go on. I’ll catch up with you later.”
He helped Bella off the counter then nodded towards the door. Bella headed on out but jumped once she spotted Edward.
He gave a mere nod but his eyes locked with Jasper’s. Something came over Jasper and it was heavy. When Bella wasn’t looking he flipped Edward off. He sent him a menacing wink afterward. Edward raised his brows but said nothing on it as he was quick to get Bella out of there.
Bella thought back to what Jasper had said as she and Edward were heading to the Cullen house. She regarded Edward and her hand in thought.
“Bella, about your hand… I’m so sorry. You know I’d never intentionally hurt you.”
She nodded but wasn’t sure what to say on that.
“Look, I’ll make up for everything. I promise. How about we make tomorrow about us? Alice could tell your father you want a girl’s night out…”
“Yes, Bella. Just the two of us, we can do whatever you want.”
“Within reason, Bella…” He said in that disciplinary tone.
Bella frowned but said nothing on it.
“So… You and Jasper seem to be getting pretty close.”
“Just be careful. He’s the feral one, remember? He doesn’t have the control I have…”
“He seems to be doing okay, actually.” Bella defended.
“Bella, I’m telling you. Don’t get too comfortable. He could hurt you, without a blink of an eye.”
This had Bella looking to her hand yet again.
“I think he has more control than you realize.” She said with a shrug, yet bitter-like tone.
Edward had this stone faced appearance as he parked the car. He looked to the house then back to Bella.
“Just stay close.”
“Edward, Jasper wouldn’t hurt me.”
“Once again you talk about things you know nothing about.”
“If he was going to hurt me he’d…”
“He’d…” Edward said as if to challenge her.
This had Bella narrowing her eyes.
“Is something wrong?”
“No. Let’s just get this over with.” He snapped.
Bella regarded him in disbelief as he went on to place his jacket over her dress then brought her hair down along her shoulders. He exited the car then opened the door for her but was awfully cold about it.
“Edward…” She whispered knowing he must’ve known.
He ignored her and dragged her towards the house.
“Edward, please. Let’s just nix this and talk. We need to.”
“You’ll say anything to get out of this, won’t you?”
Edward opened the door and Jasper was coming down the stairs when his eyes locked with hers. He could sense her distress. She nodded his direction and he nodded in return. He knew something was up, but he wasn’t sure what. Alice was quick to take Bella by the hand and went on to brag about what all she’d set up. There were roses, balloons, cake, gifts, and enough food for an army. That seemed a bit odd to Bella, considering she would be the only one eating.
“Hey, Bella!” Emmett called and went on to hug her.
“So Happy Birthday and stuff!”
He chuckled and messed up Edward’s hair a bit. Rosalie sent Bella one of her usual looks of disapproval and kept her distance. Esme and Carlisle greeted Bella with a hug and went on to wish her a happy birthday. They had Bella blow out her candles then open her presents. Jasper had this peculiar look about him when Alice presented ‘their’ gift to Bella, something he took no part in. That was about typical for Alice though. Jasper had already given Bella his personal gift. But she hadn’t a clue that was his doing, the gift of truth. It took a lot of focus… Using his empathy to get her to be honest with everyone, for once. He thought it rather interesting, the things she held back on a daily basis.
Esme and Carlisle handed Bella their gift last. But just before she went to open it, Edward whispered something into her ear. Whatever he said must’ve been hurtful. Her whole appearance changed and her hand shook as she went on to open the gift. Jasper already knew what was inside. Airplane vouchers, for two, to wherever Bella wanted to go. This was just another attempt of Carlisle’s. He must’ve known Edward and Bella were having trouble. He was downright pushy and set in his ways. This had Jasper thinking back to when he first joined the Olympic Coven. Often enough it felt like that of a cult rather than an actual coven or “family” as Carlisle often put it. The Cullens had their entire lives mapped out for them. And it was more than obvious they were doing the same for Edward and Bella. Years and years of repeating high school, Jasper thought with a frown. That was something he always hated. He never liked school in his human years. Yet here he was… living this torturous routine of theirs. Carlisle claimed it was for their own good so no suspicions were raised. Jasper called foul in the sense that it seemed to raise MORE suspicions. Things such as why the Cullens missed on certain days, those being the sunniest and why they were already paired off. He hated the rumors that he and Emmett were fucking their sisters. Nothing pissed him off more than being pegged as an incest loving bastard. Yet here he was… This coven’s bitch. How the fuck did that happen?
“You alright there, son?” Carlisle questioned.
Just as Jasper went to respond, Bella let out a bit of a gasp. “Papercut…” She murmured. He tilted his head as he picked up on not only the scent of her blood, but a touch of something else. Something he hadn’t felt since his days of war. One look Alice and Edward’s direction was all it took. SHIT!!! He thought and took off with an immediate leap towards Bella. Edward was quick to shove Bella back then he grabbed ahold of Jasper and sent him flying towards Emmett. He dodged Emmett’s grasp and charged for Bella once again.
“NOOOO!” He barked and threw himself in front of her.
He flung Alice through Edward’s piano. Edward went to grab Bella only to have Jasper beat him to the punch. He had her in his hold and looked to each of the Cullens.
“BACK OFF!” He roared but the animalistic side was breathing her in.
“Jasper?!” Alice called in disbelief.
Even with his sheer amount of bloodlust, all he could think about was keeping Bella safe. The only way of doing that… Was to take off with her, somewhere the Cullens would never think to look. He’d come back and face these demons later on…
“Hey…” Jasper called once he finally came to a stop.
Bella was looking awfully pale and shivering in his hold. Jasper laid her down then went on to check her over.
“God, you smell good.” He murmured as he was doing his best to take care of her and push past his own needs.
His mind and body were telling him that she was his to have now. But she was in no shape for all that. He plucked the glass out from her arm then removed the jacket Edward had her in. He ripped one of the sleeves off then used it to tie around the wound on her arm.
“Bella, look at me…” He softly stated as he could not only sense but see the fear in her eyes.
“No matter what I’m feeling… I have control. And do in the sense of knowing I’ll do everything within my power to keep you safe, at all cost, even from myself. Do you understand?”
“I’m not afraid of you…” She said and he nodded in understanding.
It wasn’t him but the situation itself. Jasper caressed her cheek.
“Jasper, I was going to tell him then break it off after the party. Alice… she must’ve seen it coming or something. The look on their faces…” She said with a cringe.
“That’s about what I figured… There’s so much we need to discuss. But now’s not the time. I gotta get you someplace safe. If I don’t, Alice will kill you, first chance she gets.”
Bella grimaced in thought.
“I’m sorry. I never meant for these things to happen.”
“Never be sorry for following your heart.” He said with fullest sincerity then scooped her up again.
“What about my father?”
“I think he’d agree on keeping you safe.”
“The chief will be fine, I promise.” But as he said this he only prayed he was able to keep his word on that.
It wasn’t just that of the Cullens he had to concern himself with. Laurent and Victoria were still out there somewhere and he knew they’d been around. He picked up their scents while watching after Bella a few times. That’s where Edward went wrong. There was a time where Edward spent too much time away and he had his coven looking after his girl while he took a ‘break’. That break having to do with her questioning him more and more about being turned and sex in general. Rather than manning up and dealing with these issues, he acted like that of a coward. That’s when it all started.
Jasper would be in his usual post and Bella wasn’t one to stay put like she was ‘told’, by yours truly nevertheless. That was another thing that got under Jasper’s skin. Edward was very controlling. He hadn’t any issues and putting his foot down when it came to Bella. Often enough, he reminded Jasper of that of a father figure rather than a boyfriend. This girl hadn’t a clue… He’d be up in that tree and merely observing as she made her way through the woods. Seemed to be a thing of hers… Bella had horrible night terrors which led to her having insomnia. At times a walk in the woods was the only thing that tamed that. So much so that often enough she’d wind up falling asleep in the woods. He always wondered how his brother and sister handled that when she did that on their watch. As for him? He’d simply lie beside her and keep watch while she slept. This girl was talker too. That’s how he found out her true feelings for Edward. Those night terrors were because of him. Jasper often enough used his gift of empathy to put her at ease so she could have a full night’s rest. He’d do whatever he could to give her some peaceful dreams for once. He hadn’t a clue what she was dreaming about. But there were a few times he caught her moaning and touching herself. It wasn’t long before she discovered that it was him doing away with those terrors. Something about that really struck a chord with her. He never understood why, but it truly meant a lot to her. In fact so much so… she would often enough ask if he was coming back the next night. That’s what led to them spending more and more time together. Jasper found himself coming up with reasons to take the others shifts just so he could be with her.
They were different when they were alone. Jasper often enough found himself more at ease. He laughed and smiled more than usual and that seemed to be the case for Bella as well. He loved being the one that brought that out in her. There was this strong sense of pride, in the sense of knowing not even Edward had that effect on her. Before long… They were getting very comfortable with one another, to the point where he’d kick back with her on the bed and they’d listen to music or watch TV. Those were the only times Jasper truly felt like his old self again. The more time he got, the more he craved. And even though she never said a word on it… He knew she felt the same. Bella was so different around him. It was night and day in comparison to his brother. With Jasper… She didn’t hold back. She said and did things she wouldn’t dare in front of the Cullens. That’s what led up to the kiss. They were kicked back on the bed and Jasper was flipping through the channels on the TV. An old country song was playing on one of the channels and thanks to Alice, he hadn’t heard good country music in quite some time. It was never her thing. In fact, Alice went out her way to wipe anything country out of their relationship. The only thing he got to hold on to… were his boots. It was things like that that really had him thinking when he was around Bella. How did Alice ever get him to marry her in the first place? Bella teased him about the music but never did she belittle him like that of Alice. If anything, she encouraged him. She was always asking questions about his past before he was a vampire and she wanted to know what kind of movies, food, and music he liked. It was during one of these conversations that one of his favorite songs came up. He hadn’t realized he was singing along until Bella got this wide grin about her and was merely listening. Once he realized what he was doing he found himself getting more into it. It didn’t help that the lyrics were just too perfect for their particular situation and he felt every word and was looking her dead in the eyes. (Fall by Clay Walker)
Before he could even truly think about what was taking place. Bella was saddled over him and her lips were locked with his. He planted those hands along her ass and was kissing her in return. He had her grinding against him. Bella went as far as to rip his shirt open and was kissing all along his neck and chest. But the moment he flipped her over and was about to give into something they’d both been craving… She put a stop to it. The guilt was overwhelming and to the point where she looked as if she’d start to cry. And he himself wanted to cry but for a whole different reason. He’d spent the last two years picturing this very moment and being turned down… Well it sucked and for the first time he felt what it was like to be human again. Blue balls and all… But having his heart ripped out, sucked even more. But he couldn’t be mad, at least not with her. He understood her reasoning and she was right. Still, he found himself wishing she would be a little more selfish and give into her own needs for once.
“Where are we?” Bella tiredly murmured.
“Vegas.” Jasper replied as he was stepping out of his boots.
“But that’s not possible…” She said while looking to the time.
“You sure about that?” He asked and went on to pull the curtain aside.
“Got us a chapel next door and everything. Might wanna get ready… Got ourselves a booking in about an hour or so.”
“Well yeah. What do you think I brought you here for?”
Bella’s eyes grew as wide as saucers.
“You want to get married?!”
“Well yeah…” He said with a shrug.
“Um hello… You’re already married! We can’t get married!” She said looking as if she’d go into hysterics.
“Bella… Darlin’… I’m fucking with you.” Or I wish… he found himself thinking.
Her jaw dropped and she threw a pillow at him.
“That wasn’t even funny.”
“Sure it was.”
She threw another pillow and he chuckled.
“Just wanted to see your reaction. Especially considering how Edward already proposed.”
“Ugh, don’t remind me.”
“I can’t believe you agreed.”
“That was his condition in order to be turned.”
“Still… That’s one hell of a commitment, Bella. It’s bad enough you were willing to die for him, but handing yourself over like that…”
“That doesn’t even sound like me. I don’t know what I was thinking.” She said looking absolutely baffled.
“It isn’t. Hell, that wasn’t even who I was. Something happened. Bella, when you kissed me. It’s like this light came on. I started to question everything. It’s like they had some sort of control over us. Since when does Jasper Whitlock – A fucking war veteran feed off animals and go to high school, repeatedly? And just what in the HELL am I wearing?!”
He looked to his gray cashmere sweater in utter disgust.
“And my hair… Jesus. What in the fuck did they do to my hair?!”
Bella swallowed back and rose up in the bed.
“Jasper?” She called as he looked like he were about to lose his shit.
He was pacing the room now and shaking his head.
“I let him get in my head, both of them! Bella, that wasn’t me. Alice said she spent her whole life looking for me. But for what reason? She told me she had to be patient and let me find her instead. But why? When all she did was change everything about me?”
Bella crawled on out of the bed then made her way over.
“How’d you do it?”
He planted his hands along her face then looked her in the eyes.
“How’d you bring me back?”
“Jasper, I think they had a hold of the both of us…” She said but went on to brace herself against the table.
Jasper ran a soothing hand along her back.
“Are you alright?”
“It’s strange… I feel so different.”
Jasper nodded in understanding and laid her back down.
“You should rest.”
“What were they doing to us?”
“I’m not quite sure. But I’m going to find out. Whatever it was… I think you’re right. Something about our connection broke us out of whatever it was. And getting you out of Forks, obviously helped.”
“What do I tell my father?”
“Just call and tell him that you’re spending the weekend with a friend.”
“No. You’re still good friends with Angela, right?”
Jasper handed her cellphone over. She looked to him in surprise.
“I’ve my ways…” He said with a wink.
Bella smiled in response as he flashed her the vouchers as well.
“You never know…” He hinted as to them coming in handy.
Bella entered the password to her phone but narrowed her eyes seeing a couple of messages.
Wish you’d have let me take you out for your birthday at least… But I understand. Have fun with Alice, kiddo. Guess I’ll see you Monday after school… If not Tuesday, I’m working graveyard Monday. Love you.
Bella narrowed her eyes on this and Jasper nodded in question.
She went to answer but paused seeing a text from Edward as well.
We can only keep you covered for so long. The chief is bound to start asking questions. Come home, Bella. Don’t pay victim… you know what he’s capable of. How do you think he got you to kiss him in the first place?
Jasper tilted his head and took the phone from her hold. He read the messages then let out a hysterical laugh.
“Well if it’s war you want brother…” He muttered before handing the phone back.
“Believe what you will. But that was all you… I’d never take advantage of a woman like that.”
“I hope so. He’s going to say whatever he can think of. Like I said… He’s obsessed darlin’. As to your father, I’m sorry they beat us to the punch. But that could play out in our favor. Look at it like this, you didn’t have to lie. They did that for you. I know how you feel when it comes to your father and I know you hate lying to him.”
Bella nodded and Jasper lay beside her. He took her hand into his own then ran a finger along the ring Edward had given her. This had him regarding his wedding band in thought as well.
Jasper took his ring off and shook his head.
“You should’ve been there for the wedding…”
“Oh I can only imagine. Alice… and her need for big celebrations.”
Jasper nodded on this.
“All of the covens were there. It was insane. Vampires I’d never met before. And to think… she was making plans for your and Edward’s wedding.”
“Nope. She had your dress and shoes already picked out and dragged me all across Seattle, pointing out more shit. This was AFTER you kissed me by the way.”
Bella blushed in thought.
“I bet that was miserable.”
“You’ve no idea… Shopping with the woman you’re about to serve with divorce papers and for the woman you’re leaving her for.”
Bella frowned on this.
“They were playing us, Bella. Both of us, from the very beginning. My feelings for Alice were just as bogus as yours for Edward. It’s funny… I thought Maria was manipulating. But Alice… Well let’s just take what Maria was capable of and double that.”
“I bet we could hawk these and make enough to get by for a while.” Jasper uttered in thought.
She nodded but trolled on out of the bed and headed to the bathroom. Jasper nodded amongst himself as he knew she was having herself a good cry. He couldn’t blame her either. The last two years of her life were nothing more than a lie. And he’d a feeling if it hadn’t been for Carlisle and Alice… He’d have run into Bella a while back. If nothing else… It would’ve been him she connected with, rather than that of Edward. Over half an hour passed before Bella exited the bathroom. Jasper lifted the covers then patted the area hintingly.
“I don’t know what I’m doing or how to go about this.”
“That makes two of us.” He admitted.
Sure, he could’ve used his empathy to ease her woes a bit but knew this was something she needed. So he figured it best to let her get it all out. Bella nodded and crawled into the covers. Jasper tucked her in then wrapped his arm around her.
“Just take your time, darlin’. I’m here whenever you’re ready.”
She buried herself within his chest and he kissed the top of her head.
“Where are we going?”
“Home. Well… home to me.”
“And where would that be?”
“I mean it. Quit blowing her phone up. She’s got enough on her plate, thanks to you and Carlisle!”
“Out of the question. You’re not talking to her, Edward. She’s done. We both are.”
“Do that and see what happens. I’ll take my boot and ram it right up that narrow ass of yours. You’re not coming anywhere near her.”
“I can handle Alice and if need be I can dance circles around you too. None of you stand a chance. Do not test me or you MAY live to regret it and that’s IF I allow it!”
Jasper hung up then crushed her phone with his bare hands. He lifted his eyes once he sensed that she was awake and her eyes were on him.
“I owe you a new phone.”
“I should say so…”
He couldn’t help but to smile on this. Jasper leaned back as he was sitting at the table. He wiggled his finger about and Bella made her way over. He pulled her into his lap then brushed her hair back. He kissed along her neck then leaned into her ear.
“I gotta hunt, before I end up devouring you. Then I gotta head into town and grab a few things we need. We’ll hit the road first thing tomorrow morning. I’ll put the do not disturbed sign up on the door so no one should come around. If they do… There’s a crawlspace in that closet over there. That’s the reason behind me choosing this hotel and room in particular. I made that crawlspace. And I’m the only one that knows about it. That leads to the chapel across the way. If you run into ANY trouble I want you to ask for Lee. He’s a bit of a handful and an Elvis impersonator. But he’s a vampire and an old friend of mine. He’ll keep you safe. Alright?”
“Will you be gone long?”
“No. I’d take you with me but… Not sure you’d approve of my new diet…”
Bella’s eyes widened in thought.
“Bella, I need to be at the top of my game. We’re getting into some serious shit here. And I’m more than willing to fight for you, but I need it to be at my terms and not that of the Cullens, or you even. I just need you to trust that I would never take the life of an innocent. I use my empathy to help me determine that.”
“You’re really going to feed from humans?”
“Like the Volturi?”
“Yes. Only I choose who lives and who dies. Whereas the Volturi have no shame in whose life they take.”
Bella drew back an uneasy breath.
“You mind writing down whatever size clothes you wear? Make sure you include bra, panties, shoes… things like that.”
“Edward said you had no control when you were on human blood.”
“I admit it’s been while. So I’m not about to sit here and fill your head with lies on what to expect. Just know that when I have my mind set on something I do my damnest to get it done.”
“Is this the major talking?”
“Is that what you want?”
Bella blushed as he bucked off the chair a bit.
“I can give you Major Whitlock if that’s what you’re after.”
Jasper swallowed back and closed his eyes for a moment.
“That right there… Bella, you’ve no idea what that does to me. Sensing you… It doesn’t seem real. How strongly you feel.”
He grabbed a fistful of her hair then kissed her. He kissed on down her neck and shoulders.
“Jasper…” She whispered like she was out of breath already.
He ran his hand up along her dress and rubbed his hand along her panties.
“Edward ever get this far?” He taunted knowing damn well he hadn’t.
Edward was a fucking prude when it came to sex, much like that of Alice. Sure, part of that had to do with his fear of hurting Bella. But he was a century old vampire. You’d think he’d know how to deal with something like that by now. Jasper was all about trying something new and if nothing else, he’d use his empathy to pay extra attention and make certain he wasn’t causing her any pain. Well other than taking her virginity of course. Something he knew Edward hadn’t accomplished yet, not that he tried.
Jasper pulled her panties to the side and she let out a bit of a gasp when he slipped a finger inside.
“How’s that feel?” He hoped he wasn’t too cold to the touch.
He raised his brows however as she let out a moan and was soaking his finger. The smell of her arousal had him taking that finger and licking it clean. This low growl escaped him and before Bella could so much as blink, he had her on the bed. He ripped her panties off then dived on in. Bella clamped a hand over her mouth and squirmed about as he had that tongue at work. Every now and then he’d breathe her in then go back to licking that sap of hers. This was the ultimate fantasy for him. The smell of her sex always drove him mad with lust and now that he finally had a taste. He couldn’t get enough.
“Hmmm, my new favorite snack.” He said as he went back to fingering her and was watching her reaction.
She cried out his name and Jasper got this smug grin about him. Two years… He thought. That’s how long he’d been waiting for this very moment.
“That the first you had your pussy ate?”
She nodded but Jasper took notice of the shocked look on her face. He smiled knowing Edward had never said that word a day in his life. Jasper shook his head in thought. What the hell did Edward do with all that time? Just sit there and hold hands? How could he go two years without fucking this girl? Jasper couldn’t even imagine. Edward often complained about Bella throwing herself at him and making it hard for him to turn down. Meanwhile, Jasper would be sitting there thinking something along the lines of I’ll fuck her. I’ll fuck the living hell out of her, you just sit there and whine like a little bitch, fucking idiot.
“Bella… Two years? And nothing?” He asked behind a serious tone.
Bella nodded once again and he rolled his eyes.
“You should’ve come to me sooner. No wonder you were all over me!”
He chuckled but sent her a wink.
“You just kick back, sweetness. I gotcha…”
As soon as he had her good and wet, he placed himself inside. But he went about it slowly and watched for any signs of discomfort.
“You ready?” He whispered once he had himself positioned.
She nodded and he bust on through. He forced himself to stop, but it was torture. He wanted nothing more than to keep on thrusting. But he could sense her pain and knew she needed a moment. He let out a breath of relief once she gave the signal to go ahead. Bella wrapped her arms around him and Jasper took it as a sign that he could pick up the speed a little more. He couldn’t believe the readings he was getting off her. Sure she was in pain… that he could sense. But even through the pain, her lust was off the charts.
“This is what you needed, isn’t it?”
Bella chewed on that bottom lip but nodded.
“FUCK! It’s what we both needed!” He announced before pulling out and cumming all across her chest.
He wanted to cum inside her but wasn’t sure how that would affect a human, considering their venom alone was toxic. He was quick to wipe it away as he didn’t wish to take any chances. But the moment he did this, his cellphone rang. He didn’t pay attention to who it was as he’d hoped it was someone else such as Lee.
“Yeah?” He answered then kissed along her breasts, on down her abdomen.
“I’M GOING TO KILL YOU!!!” Edward roared on the other end.
Jasper couldn’t help but to laugh.
“You can try…”
“HOW COULD YOU DO THIS?! ARE YOU TRYING TO KILL HER?! WHAT’S NEXT? ARE YOU GOING TO TURN HER? IS THAT IT? YOU’RE GOING TO GIVE INTO ALL HER SELFISH NEEDS, JUST BECAUSE SHE ASKS FOR IT.”
“I just might. What do you say, my lil firecracker? Do you want me to turn you as well?”
Bella looked to Jasper in shock and he nodded as if to let her know he was dead serious.
“DON’T YOU EVEN THINK ABOUT IT! SHE’S NOT READY FOR ALL THAT. AND SHE ISN’T YOURS TO BE MAKING THOSE KINDS OF DECISIONS FOR.”
Bella took the phone from Jasper’s hold.
“I’m not yours, Edward. Kill him and I’ll have the Volturi hunting your ass down. As for Jasper? He isn’t killing me! If anything… he’s allowing me to live, for once. Call me selfish. Call me whatever you want, but I wasn’t the one faking our entire relationship!”
“I read your journal, Bella… Don’t even begin to tell me you haven’t been faking. All this nonsense about having to hide your feelings, FOR MY BROTHER?! And for the past year?! Jesus, Bella!”
This had Jasper looking to her in complete surprise. He hadn’t known that part at all. But it unnerved him knowing that Edward was snooping through her personal shit.
“I can’t believe the stuff I’m reading…”
“WHAT THE HELL, EDWARD?! THOSE ARE MY PRIVATE THOUGHTS!”
“I CAN SEE WHY! YOU’RE NOTHING MORE THAN A CHILD NOT GETTING HER WAY. THAT’S THE ONLY REASON YOU TURNED TO JASPER IN THE FIRST PLACE, ISN’T IT? YOU KNEW HE’D GIVE INTO YOU. I HADN’T ANY IDEA YOU WERE SUCH A SPOILED LITTLE BRAAAT!”
Jasper cocked a brow on this.
“Well he’s really going out his way to win you back. And was it just me or did he more or less just admit to being a pedophile?!” Jasper murmured and went back to kissing various parts of her body.
“Right?” Bella said but behind a moan and Jasper laughed.
“Edward, we’re a little busy. So if you wouldn’t mind… Bella’s going to hang up now. If you feel the need you can look after the wife for me. Oh and make certain she’s there come morning. Alice has some important papers coming her way.”
Jasper took the phone then tossed it aside.
“Does this mean he knows where we are?”
“No. If he did he’d have been here by now, Alice for certain. I’m keeping them out, Bella. The most she could’ve gotten is a mere glimpse of what we were doing.”
Bella nodded but had that unsure look about her.
“Now… where were we?” He wasn’t ignoring this but wanted to take her mind off the whole ordeal.
Bella laughed but clamped a hand over her mouth. She couldn’t believe she was acting like this.
Jasper lifted his eyes in thought.
“So a year, huh?”
Bella swallowed back but nodded.
“How’d you manage to keep that from me?”
“It wasn’t easy…” She admitted.
“Try two years…” He challenged in return.
“Two years? But that would be…”
“When I first met you…”
Her jaw dropped and he gave a simple nod.
“I think I always knew. Edward made it clear you were not to be touched, that he already had his eyes on you. He mentioned your intoxicating scent, something I could sympathize with. You even had my wife astir on a couple occasions. Something about you is different from most humans. There’s nothing quite like it. However his main appeal was the fact that he couldn’t read you like everyone else. And that’s where Edward’s obsession truly lied. He wanted to know more and more about you. He spent more time talking about that rather than you on a more personal level. Sure, he went on about being in love. But that isn’t quite the read I get from Edward. He looks at you like you’re a possession of his and I don’t mean that in the sense of a mate or lover. I mean that in the sense of him flat-out owning you. Edward had this very hands off approach when it comes to you and isn’t just about ones such as myself – seeking your affections. No. He felt that way about anyone near you, even that of Angela and your own father. He’s sick, Bella. I’m talking mental. You have to be careful.”
Jasper breathed her in then looked to be shaking something off.
“I’m sorry, but I really need to feed.”
He flew off the bed and was quick to get dressed.
“Remember everything I said. I’m not sure how long I’ll be, but I’ll return as soon as I can.”
Bella nodded. Jasper’s eyes were pitch black and he seemed to be in absolute suffering.
“Lock up behind me and please be safe.”
He gave a simple nod and then vanished.
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