Chapter 21 – What’s Knocked Up?
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Later on in Maine:
“Ali?” The Scot called as she shot up from the bed and ran straight for the bathroom.
Chibs glanced over and saw the blood on the bedsheets.
“ARE YE ALRIGHT?!” He hollered with concern then sprang to his feet.
“Aye, sorry Scotty. It’s just the monthly visit.”
The Scot let out a breath of relief. But this was followed by a touch of disappointment knowing she wasn’t pregnant after all. Then again, it’d only been a little over a week since he’d come inside her. Aislinn exited the bathroom with a flushed face then hurriedly stripped the bed.
“I’ll see if there’s some more sheets in the linen closet,” Aislinn said then took off.
Chibs shook his head. The girl was all worked up over nothing. The Scot grabbed a smoke and headed onto the patio. He could hear Aislinn going back in forth in attempts to scrub the blood from the sheets. He heard the washer start, and she darted on up the stairs with clean sheets. Aislinn was quick to make the bed and went to gather him once she finished.
“Sorry ‘bout that Scotty. I didn’t know I was goin’ to start.”
Chibs shrugged then pulled her into his lap. He handed Aislinn the rest of his cigarette. The Scot pecked her on the shoulder as she took a long drag. She’d been holding off, just in case. She didn’t voice it, but Chibs knew what she’d been doing. She had backed off anything alcoholic as well.
“Guess that means we don’t have to worry on that…” She coyly hinted, and Chibs nodded.
He couldn’t be certain, but it seemed as if she was disappointed as well. Chibs cleared his throat.
“Gives us more time ta plan it all out.” He said hoping to brighten her spirits a bit.
Abel had been doing a remarkable job referring to them as his mother and father when they were outside, or the couple times they had to hit town. It was for little things like needing milk and other odds and ends for the house, but he hadn’t slipped up once. It was during these times Aislinn seemed into her role as “mommy”. She made it very believable, and that only had the Scott wanting the reality of it all even more.
The Scot turned her about so that she was facing him. He placed a strand of hair behind her ear.
“What is it?” He asked as she seemed a bit off.
“They’re heavier and a lot more painful than usual…” She hinted.
“Ye mean since…” He cued in return and Aislinn nodded.
“That can happen… Ye might want to see a gyno when we get ta Charmin’. I strongly advise that ye do.”
Chibs thought back to the cycles he’d witnessed. She never let on that she was even on her period, but he could tell. The pain was written all over her face. She had a habit of keeping her arms wrapped around her abdomen the first few days. That first one, however… the one right after Jimmy. That was the worst he’d ever witnessed on a woman. This had the Scot lifting her shirt and placing his hands along her stomach. He did this knowing the heat he gave off would help with her cramps.
“If we were to have a baby what would ya want?”
“Ye mean sex?”
“Ali love, I don’t really care as long as they’re healthy.”
Aislinn smiled at his response and rested her head along his shoulder.
“Do ye have a preference?” He curiously asked while running a soothing hand along her back.
“Nah, I feel like you about it.”
“I think ye should go back ta bed darlin’.” He said as she looked a little pale and she was clammy to the touch.
“I’m sorry I woke ya.”
“Aye now, those things tend ta happen.”
Chibs had her lift up, and he escorted her back to bed.
“Aren’t ya tired?” She said as it was five in the morning.
“Nah, ye go on and get some sleep. I’m gonna have me a cup of coffee and get some breakfast started here soon. Abel will be up before we know it.”
“Ya know Riona, and I will handle that.”
“I don’t mind pitchin’ in. That’ll give ye two a break.” Chibs uttered as he turned off the light then pulled the door to after.
That felt so peculiar to him. The Scot hadn’t realized just how badly he wanted that pregnancy. But he could picture it perfectly. Aislinn with that round belly, ready to pop any day… The mere idea had him anxious in ways he couldn’t describe.
He went on to make him that cup of coffee then kicked back at the dining room table. The Scot sipped on that cup of coffee and went on to fantasize what that would be like. He wanted to be there for everything. He wasn’t missing out, not this time. He’d always taken care of his brothers, but the Scot knew when it came to Aislinn, and whatever family they had, he’d put them first. That’s how it should be. Jax had let everyone know a long time ago that his son came first. Family, then club. JT was a firm believer in that and Jax followed suit. The MC never harped on anyone needing time away for family. Jax made that perfectly clear the day he replaced his father. That would never change.
Chibs was on his third cup of coffee and lost in thought when Abel entered the kitchen.
“You’s awake too Uncle Chibs?”
The Scot lifted his head and smiled the boy’s direction.
“Aye, we’re early risers!”
Abel giggled then crawled into his lap.
“Are ye hungry?” Chibs questioned, and Abel nodded.
“What would ye like?”
“Hmmmm.” Abel hummed as he held his cross beside Chibs’s.
“Does we have pancakes and syrup?”
“We sure do!”
“I wants that for breakfast.”
“Sounds like ye got it all planned out. Ye want chocolate milk with that?”
“On it!” Chibs said then placed Abel in the chair beside him.
Abel giggled as Chibs put on one of Kip’s grandmother’s aprons.
“You’s look so silly Uncle Chibs. You’s not a girl!”
“I didn’t see one in black.” The Scot uttered with a shrug.
“You’s and daddy need crow ones!”
“Aye, now that isn’t such a bad idea. I’ll have to keep that in mind! SAMCRO aprons!”
Abel giggled and kicked his feet about as Chibs made everyone breakfast.
“Hey, you two.” Riona greeted as she entered the kitchen.
She pecked them both on the cheek then went on to pour herself a glass of chocolate milk.
“She’s not feelin’ so great.” The medic admitted.
“She gettin’ sick?”
“Ye could say that. It’s that once a month bug.” He hinted, and Riona recoiled.
“Still gettin’ em that bad?” The young woman questioned.
Riona shook her head in thought.
“She needs to go to a doctor. Well, you know what I mean…”
Chibs chuckled but nodded in agreement.
“Midol not helpin’?”
Riona sighed in frustration. Whatever Jimmy did interfered with Aislinn’s menstrual cycle, and it was causing her significant pain. She’d be damn near bedridden for the next couple days until the cramps died down.
“Anythin’ I can do to help?”
“I got it, lass. Ye just kick back and relax.”
Abel patted the empty chair beside him, and Riona accepted the invitation.
“Does Aunt Linny really have a bug?”
“In a way…”
“Does she eats the bug and it makes her sick?
Riona and Chibs had a good laugh at this.
“Not quite lad. It’s kind of like when you get an upset stomach.”
“Oh okay, so Linny no feel good at all.”
“Does she have Thomas with her?”
“Aye, I made certain he was tucked away, right beside her.” Chibs murmured, and he wasn’t fibbing either. Something about that dragon had Chibs making sure it truly stayed by Aislinn’s side. Not that she needed much coaxing. She usually had it on the nightstand, right beside her. She adored that dragon and kept it close at night.
“Okays. That good cause Thomas will help Linny feel better.”
“Why don’t ya make her a plate and I’ll bring it to her?” Riona offered once he finished.
“Linny?” Riona called after knocking on the bedroom door a couple times.
She entered the room when she didn’t get an answer. Riona placed the tray of food down on the nightstand. The young woman grimaced when she saw the blood on the sheets. Riona was quick to gather them up and was about to head off and put them into the wash. She turned however as she heard the bathroom door open. Aislinn stepped out and was using the wall to brace herself. All the color had left her face.
“Linny love, ya gotta get seen! Chibs says you need to take that iron he got ya too.”
Aislinn made no comment as she made her way to the bed. She lay down then curled up into a fetal position.
“I can take care of those Riona. Just give me a minute.”
“I don’t want ya out of that bed! You’ll fall down the stairs with the way you’re lookin’. Eat and take that iron. I left it beside your coffee. I’ll see if there’s a heatin’ pad about.”
“Don’t. Please. I’ll be fine in a couple days.”
“Aye, in a couple days. That’s too long. Just let me get these in the wash, and I’ll get ya taken care of.”
“I’m not a wee girl anymore Riona. Ya don’t have to take care of me.”
“Ya watch that mouth. You’re never too old!” Riona scolded, and Aislinn managed to laugh.
Riona smiled then gave her sister a firm nod.
“I’ll be right back.”
Chibs shook his head once he saw Riona with another set of bedsheets. This was how it was the last couple cycles. Only the girl was downright humiliated as one of those times was on the ship. Aislinn was trying her hardest to be discreet in getting everything cleaned up. Not easy to do on a ship filled with men. Chibs and Riona did whatever they could to help, but that didn’t seem to take the edge off the situation. It wasn’t so much about having her period it was how much she was bleeding and the amount of pain she was in. Like that of Riona, Chibs wished he knew what to do. But he hadn’t a clue what was causing this exactly. Maybe her estrogen levels were too high? But that wouldn’t explain why it happened after Jimmy. If she wasn’t hurting during intercourse, then how was it affecting her menstrual cycles? He was beginning to wonder if it was trauma from what Jimmy had done. Was the pain similar to the aftermath of Jimmy and this was her body’s way of responding to that pain, making things ten times worse? A million one things ran through the Scot’s mind as he was trying to pinpoint what it could be.
“I bet she’s wishin’ ya would’ve knocked her up now.” Riona teased, and Chibs half laughed.
“Sorry lad. I shouldn’t have said that. That was terrible.” Riona said as she went on to unload the washer and loaded the other sheets in.
“Ye didn’t say anythin’ I wasn’t already thinkin’ lass.” He called in return.
“What knocked up mean?” Abel innocently questioned.
“Ya wanna cover that one Uncle Chibs?” Riona taunted, and the Scot sighed.
“Why don’t ya call yer father and ask him?” Chibs uttered, and Riona died of laughter.
“Aye, now this I gotta hear.”
“And put him on speaker!” Chibs added while handing Abel the phone.
Chibs had dialed the number for him and had it on speaker. Riona snorted and listened.
“No, it me, daddy.”
“Hey, little man!”
“How you doing today?”
“I is okay. Is you?”
“Oh yeah. Been pretty busy with the shop.”
“You fix a lot of cars?”
“Yep and a couple motorcycles today.”
“Dat cool. Daddy, I has a question.”
“And what would that be?”
Abel looked to Chibs and Riona before asking.
“What knocked up mean?”
There were a few seconds of silence on Jax’s end.
“Where’d you hear that from?”
Riona grimaced, and Chibs resisted the urge to laugh. This phone call didn’t go the way Riona expected. Jax cleared his throat.
“How’d she say it?”
“She says something about wishing you’d have knocked her up by now.”
Chibs lost all composure and burst into a fit of laughter. Riona’s jaw damn near hit the floor.
“Is that your Uncle Chibs?” Jax questioned.
“Yeah. I no know why he laughing.”
“Did Riona really say that?”
There was another awkward moment of silence.
“So she wants to have a baby?” They heard Jax softly utter, and he sounded rather panicked.
Riona was just about to yank the phone out of Abel’s hand when Abel giggled.
“No’s daddy. She no want a baby, not for a long time. But she wishes for knocked up.”
“Oh, Mary…” Riona muttered and was quick to grab the phone and take it off of speaker.
“Jackson…” Riona sputtered.
“Is that true?” Jax questioned, and Riona let out a nervous laugh.
“I was talkin’ about Linny. The lad misunderstood.”
“So you’re not pregnant…?”
Jax let out a breath of relief.
“Jesus. Don’t scare me like that!”
“Sorry,” Riona said behind a nervy giggle.
“I’m all for knockin’ you up darlin’. But think we can hold off until we’re married at least?” Jax playfully put, and Riona laughed.
“I’m already taken, remember? You’re too late!” Riona teased with a wink Abel’s direction, and the boy giggled.
“Yeah daddy, you is toooo late!” He hollered in response and Jax laughed.
Jax said something to one of the boys and Riona heard Bobby shout out a “hi Riona”. She smiled and told Jax to say hello in return.
“That was all kinds of fucked up babe. I can’t believe you and Chibs had Abel call with that question and making me think I knocked you up already.”
“That wasn’t my intention. I just wanted to make you sweat. Never meant for ya to think I was pregnant though.”
“Well, you achieved the sweating part.”
There was a brief moment of silence.
“So Aislinn wants a baby?” Jax uttered as it finally dawned on him.
“It’s rather complicated… You’d have to be here to understand.”
“Still, I didn’t expect that.”
Riona took the phone call to another room. She softly explained how Chibs and Aislinn had a little oops moment and that’s what led to the knocked up conversation.
“Oh man… so Chibs proposed to Aislinn?!” Jax questioned with a touch of shock.
“That must’ve been what that money was for…” Jax uttered.
“Yeah, Chibs had me wire some money over last week. I hadn’t a clue what it was for, but he let me know everyone was okay. I was afraid something happened.”
“Well, it did in a way.”
“And they’re ready for a baby? Already?!”
“Sounds like it.”
“Man, he doesn’t waste any time.”
Jax let out another sigh, however.
“I really need to amp up my game. Abel and Chibs are making me look bad.”
“Big time!” Riona teased, and Jax chuckled.
“I miss you.” He sincerely put.
“I miss you too Jackson.”
“I was thinking…”
“Not so sure that’s a good thing.” She cruelly taunted.
“Funny…” Jax muttered, and Riona laughed.
“And what were ya thinkin’ about?”
“I know we talked about you and Aislinn staying with Chibs. But it sounds like things are starting to pick up for them. That’d put you in a third wheel type of situation…”
Jax cleared his throat once again.
“Why don’t you just come on home with me and Abel?”
Riona was so stunned she couldn’t muster up any words.
“Riona babe?” Jax questioned.
“Ya want me to move in?”
“Well yeah, you might as well. Don’t see the point in you staying with Chibs. I got more than enough room, and at this point, it wouldn’t make sense anyhow. I want you home with me baby. Is that okay?”
“Aye, but only if you’re sure.”
“One hundred ten percent!”
“Guess I’m movin’ in then.”
“Awesome. Can’t wait.”
“I don’t have to worry about that ex-wife of yours now do I?”
“Hell no. I already dealt with all that.”
“I assure you. That will not be an issue. Tara’s long gone babe.”
“Aye… Ya wanna talk to her?”
Riona headed back into the kitchen and on up the stairs where her sister was. She knocked on the door before entering but grimaced directly after.
“Linny?” Riona softly called.
Aislinn lifted her head as she was huddled into a corner of the room. She had her knees up against her chest. Her arms were wrapped around them, and she was rocking back and forth.
“I’ll have her call you back,” Riona said before hanging up.
“Hey…” Riona called once again then reached over cupping her sister’s chin.
“It won’t stop.”
“What’s that love?”
“The pain… it’s the same.”
“Every time it’s like he’s right here.”
Riona’s heart sank to the pit of her stomach once she gathered the meaning behind that.
“Tell me what I can do.”
“There’s nothin’. It just repeats itself over and over.”
Aislinn’s eyes were sunken in, and her hair was wild from pulling at it. Riona pried her sister’s hands out of her hair.
“You’re hurtin’ yourself!”
“I don’t want him here!”
The way her sister said this had her darting out of the room and right for Chibs. The look on Riona’s face had the Scot shooting to his feet, the second she entered the kitchen.
“Somethin’s wrong,” Riona whispered, and Chibs followed her into the bedroom.
“Jaysus,” Chibs whispered and rushed on over.
“She said somethin’ about not wantin’ him here…” Riona whispered, and Chibs flinched.
“Says the pain’s the same too.”
“I got it darlin’. Just keep an eye on the lad.”
Riona nodded and pulled the door to once she exited the room.
“Ali love, look at me,” Chibs called.
Aislinn lifted her head once again, and the Scot gave a mere nod.
“It’s all in here,” Chibs said while pointing to his head.
It was just as he suspected. Her body was reacting to whatever she was going through.
Aislinn shook her head in disagreement.
“Ali, whatever yer seein’ or feelin’ it isn’t him. Jimmy’s gone.”
“I know, but it doesn’t feel that way.”
Chibs helped Aislinn to her feet.
“So these cycles of yers… Feel like that day?”
She nodded, and Chibs had that heart drop feeling.
“Why didn’t ye say somethin’ before, love?”
“Sounds a wee bit insane, doesn’t it?”
“Not even a little… Ye should’ve told me ye was goin’ through this! If not me, then yer sister at least.”
Chibs led her into the bathroom then sat her up on the counter. He went on to run her a bath. Chibs thought back to those couple days on the ship. She kept to herself and spent most of her time in bed when she wasn’t hitting the shower. He hadn’t a clue she was suffering like that. If he had known… He would’ve have done something about it sooner. It wasn’t right. She’d suffered enough. The mere idea of her going through this once a month was enough to haunt even him. He wouldn’t stand for it. He had to figure something out. Chibs said nothing as he stripped Aislinn of her clothes and helped her into the tub. He figured a warm, relaxing bath would help ease some of the pain. That and he wanted to put her mind at ease. He added rose oil thinking that might help as well.
“I’ll be right back.” He said and went to gather a bottle of valium he had in his medical bag. He didn’t want her to get into the habit of counting on those, but it would do for now, at least until he could get her an appointment. Chibs had a feeling he needed to be there for that one. The Scot returned with the valium.
“Need somethin’ ta drink with that?”
“I’m good.” She said before swallowing the pill down.
“I wished ye’d have told me.” He reiterated and sat at the edge of the tub.
“Who wants to admit to somethin’ like that, Scotty?! It makes me sound like I’m losin’ my mind! You’re gonna lock me in a bin and throw away the key!”
“Only if I’m joinin’ ye! What yer feelin’… that’s ta be expected. Yer too hard on yerself. What ye went through… Most women couldn’t…” Chibs trailed off as he wasn’t sure how to word that exactly.
But those kinds of things had a way of making a woman suicidal if they didn’t end up in therapy for the rest of their lives. Aislinn didn’t seem to grasp that she was justified in feeling the way she did. She truly believed she was being irrational. But Chibs and Riona knew that was the furthest thing from the truth, and both agreed that she’d handled it better than most would have. Riona meant it when she said her sister had come a long way. But that never meant it was over and done. No. There would be things such as this that would trigger that day over and over again. There wasn’t anything they could do about it either. All they could do was be there to support and walk her through it the best they could. Riona could sympathize as she’d been through something similar and she herself struggled to this very day.
They sat in silence as Chibs waited for that valium to kick in. He knew it had when she grabbed ahold of his arm and was hugging it. Chibs reached over with his other hand and brushed her hair back with his fingers.
“I wanted your baby,” Aislinn whispered, and Chibs raised his brows on this.
“Did ye now?” He said not knowing what to say to that.
“A wee Scotty.” She said with a smile.
Chibs was beginning to wonder if he should’ve cut that valium in half. He’d given her the full dose as he was desperate to put her at ease.
“There’ll be plenty of time fur that, pet,” Chibs reassured, and Aislinn nodded against his arm.
“I hope he has your eyes and smile.”
“He?” Chibs uttered in surprise.
“Or she… but I think we’ll have a boy first.”
“Is that so?”
Aislinn nodded once again, but her eyes were coming to a close.
“He’ll be just like you.” The way she said this had the Scot turning into a pile of goo.
“Let’s hope not lass.” He teased, and Aislinn gave a tired giggle.
Chibs drained the water then helped her dry off. He laid a towel down just in case and got her situated. He thought it best to keep an eye on her. So he kicked back in the chair and read while she slept.
“Scotty?” He heard after a few hours passed.
The Scot took his glasses off then set his book down. He nodded her direction.
“How ye feelin’, pet?”
Chibs knew that wouldn’t last as the valium was sure to wear off soon. Aislinn headed for the bathroom. The Scot rolled up the towel and took it upon himself to get it into the wash.
“How is she?” Riona asked as she and Abel were building a log cabin out of Popsicle sticks.
“What’d ya give her?” She curiously asked.
“Valium,” Chibs uttered with a shrug, and Riona sighed.
“It’s all I have lass,” Chibs explained, and Riona nodded in understanding.
“Is Aunt Linny going to have a baby?” Abel asked, and Riona sent the Scot an apologetic glance.
“I told him what knocked up meant…” She admitted, and Chibs nodded.
“One day… but not right now.” Chibs replied.
“Oh…” Abel said looking slightly disappointed.
“If Aunt Linny has a baby it will be my friend. I will take care of the baby.” Abel said with a firm nod, and the Scot smiled.
“No doubt about that lad.”
“Does you want Aunt Linny to have a baby, Uncle Chibs?”
“Aye.” Chibs acknowledged, and Riona smiled.
Abel giggled however and looked to be in thought.
“What’s that?” Chibs questioned while giving the boy a noogie.
“You no marries, Uncle Chibs! You has to be marries before you has a baby!”
Chibs reared back and pretended to be in shock.
“Well, I better get to that!”
“Yes, cause you can’t has a baby if you no marries.”
“And who told you that kid?” Chibs asked as he was curious as to what Abel’s answer would be.
“Daddy says no has a baby unless you’re marries because it no right.”
Abel gathered this rather gloomy expression, however.
That took Chibs and Riona by surprise. That didn’t sound like a Jax thing to say. Riona figured Jax said that hoping Abel would grow up to do things differently.
“Abel?” Riona called with concern.
“My daddy marries but she no wanna have a baby, and no want me. She go away and never come back.” Abel looked to Riona with tears in his eyes.
“You no leave right, mommy?”
“Not in a million years,” Riona vowed, and Abel hugged her.
Chibs gave Riona’s shoulder a bit of a soothing squeeze then headed for the bedroom.
The Scot entered the room to find Aislinn brushing her hair. She seemed to be in better spirits and was getting around easier. He wasn’t sure if it was the valium or if the worst had passed. He was hoping for the second one. Chibs didn’t comment as he didn’t want to jinx it. So he wrapped his arms around her waist and regarded their reflection in the mirror.
“Look at that smokin’ couple. Bet they’d make one hell of a porno.” He teased, and Aislinn giggled but with a blush.
“Em.” He hummed and pecked her on the neck.
The young woman smiled as they could hear Riona playing her guitar for Abel.
Aislinn spun around so that she was facing Chibs.
“I love you.”
“I love you too, darlin’. But next time I want ye to tell me when yer in pain like that, alright?”
Aislinn nodded and hugged him close.
“I mean it, lass.”
“I will.” She promised, and Chibs nodded before kissing her.
“You look ten times better!” Riona remarked and hugged her sister once she entered the living area.
“Looks Aunt Linny, we’s making a cabin!”
“That’s deadly!” Aislinn remarked, and Abel giggled.
“It no deadly…”
“You got a lot to learn about Irish slang lad.” She said behind laughter.
“Let’s just say that when Linny says savage or deadly, that’s actually a good thing. Like sayin’ awesome or cool!” Riona explained.
“Oh, okay. So it deadly!”
“That’s right lad!” Aislinn said like a proud aunt and Abel giggled.
“Did ya get a chance to call Jackson?”
“I forgot all aboot that. Sorry lass.” The Scot admitted as he’d was sitting in one of the recliners and reading.
“All good. I let him know she wasn’t feeling very well earlier.”
“Ya didn’t tell him why, did ya?!” Aislinn asked with a look of absolute horror.
“Of course not!” Riona said as if to say duh.
Aislinn let out a breath of relief as Chibs handed the phone over. He showed her which one to dial for Jax and left her to it.
Jax and Aislinn conversation:
“You think we’ll be back in time?”
“I hope so.”
“So you found him?”
Aislinn let out a discouraged sigh.
“Don’t you start that too. I know you ladies are getting frustrated, but I swear I’m doing everything I can to get you home.”
“I know you are. As to your question she likes anythin’ teal, purple, or blue like your eyes.”
“My eyes, huh?”
“Aye, said so herself!”
“Alright, anything else I should know? Like what kind of cake does she like?”
“All girls like chocolate Jax!”
Aislinn gave him a few more tips on how to go about this surprise party he was planning.
“What are you gettin’ her?” Aislinn asked afterward.
“Haven’t decided that yet.”
“Well, we know Abel’s gift.” Aislinn teased as to Abel saying he was giving Riona his daddy.
Jax chuckled in thought.
“I think I have something to go along with that.”
“Do ya now?”
“Ya have me curious now. If ya need any help or some more tips let me know.”
“Good luck Jax.”
“Did ya need anythin’ else?”
“Not at the moment. How you feeling by the way?”
“I’m better. Thank you.”
“I suppose congratulations are in order. Riona tells me you and Filip are engaged now.”
“Aye.” She said while looking to her ring.
“That’s great, Aislinn. I’m really happy for you guys.”
“I’ll let you go now. If you guys need anything, don’t hesitate to call. Love you Aislinn.”
“Love you too Jax. Take care of yourself.”
“You too darlin’.”
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