Days Past, Future Lost.
He nodded as he was sitting in a chair across from her.
“Have you been there all night?”
He didn’t answer and came to a stand.
“It’s unhealthy you know.”
“And that would be?”
The vampire sighed as he sat beside her on the bed.
“Obsession?!” She countered looking offended.
“You were talking in your sleep again.”
Bella sort of laughed and shook her head.
“They’re dreams Edward, not obsessions. We can’t control what we dream.”
“I suppose, I wouldn’t know. It’s been awhile…” he hinted.
“Right… you don’t dream or sleep for that matter.”
He nodded and reached over adjusting the covers. Bella smiled and lowered them back down. Edward was quick to look away as she was revealing some cleavage.
“Bella…” He scolded.
She frowned and trolled on out of the bed.
“I’ve upset you.”
“Gee, you think?! Why do I feel like the villain out to steal YOUR virtue in this relationship? I mean honestly Edward! Do you even want me?!”
“Don’t be ridiculous! Of course I do!”
“Then why do you recoil and make that disgusted face every time?!”
“You know why!”
“There’s a difference and you know it. It’s not the same as when I take your hand or hug you. It’s when I make any attempt in taking things to the next level. You look as if you’re about to vomit!”
“Jesus Bella… Is that what you really think?!”
“You should see your face!”
“That couldn’t be further from the truth. If anything it makes things a little harder for me, that’s all. I just need you to tame it down a bit. Quit throwing yourself at me every time we’re alone!”
“Throwing myself at you?!”
Edward grimaced once he realized just how that sounded.
“You know what I mean…”
“Yeah… I do, unfortunately. So is there anything else you’d like to add to the list?”
“Yeah… you know… No kissing, no exposing myself, no dreaming of a particular genre, no hanging out with the Quileute’s.”
“All in which are for YOUR protection. Can you not see that?!”
“And what is it about my dreams you’re protecting me from?!”
He shook his head and sort of laughed.
“I don’t know Bella, you tell me…”
She reared back and once it fully processed her jaw dropped.
He nodded and pulled a certain face.
“That’s hardly fair! You can’t put that on me!”
“So who is he?”
“Oh my god… I can’t believe we’re having this conversation!”
“Just tell me. Is it someone you know? Or…”
“It could be you for all I know! He doesn’t have a face! It’s just a dream for crying out loud. I’m human, remember?!”
Edward looked to the time and nodded.
“You need your sleep. Tomorrow’s a special day.”
Bella rolled her eyes on this.
“And we talked about this already.”
“Don’t be like that. Bella, your birthday is something to celebrate.”
“Edward… please. You know how if feel about that.”
He smiled and made his way over.
“What kind of boyfriend would I be if I chose to ignore your birthday?” He said whilst caressing her cheek.
“Just promise me you won’t make it a big deal.”
“It’ll just be us. We’ll keep it simple, I promise. Now back to bed. I’ll see you first thing tomorrow morning.”
Chapter 1 – Through The Looking Glass
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Edward sighed and quickly pulled Bella off to the side.
“I know I did. But she’s persistent, that one. She wouldn’t take no for an answer.”
“Surely, if you just explain…”
“Bella, she worked really hard on this, it’d hurt her feelings if we back out now.”
Bella frowned and regarded Alice from a distance. She let out an exasperated sigh.
“Fine… I’ll go. But you owe me, big time.”
“Who knows… you might actually enjoy it.”
“I somehow doubt that.”
“You’re a strange girl, you know that? What eighteen year old doesn’t want a birthday party?”
He didn’t comment and simply escorted Bella to her next class.
As the day progressed she was becoming more and more bitter about Edward going against her wishes. Her birthday bad become more about pleasing Alice than anything else.
Not that she didn’t like Alice, but she had a bad habit of taking things into her own hands. And Edward was never one to set her straight about it either. She was looking forward to spending the day with Edward. But now it would be him and the Cullens. Not that it was necessarily a bad thing, but it wasn’t exactly what she wanted for her birthday either.
“You alright there, darlin’?”
Bella peered over to see Jasper cutting her a look of concern. She could count on one hand how times they’d communicated. So at the moment she was rather dumbfounded.
“Um yeah… I’m fine.”
He narrowed his eyes as if he didn’t quite believe her. She forced a smile – something she found herself doing a lot as of late. She and Edward had been through so much together but it didn’t seem to be going anywhere and mostly because he wouldn’t allow it. It was maddening how many times she’d put herself out there and yet he always had some sort of excuse. They’d been together for nearly two years now, still Bella felt as though she were right back in elementary, holding hands. As that’s all Edward would truly allow. And heaven forbid if she so much as hinted at being turned. At the rate this was going… she was beginning to wonder if there even was a future for her and Edward. How could there be one if he put up a block at every obstacle they came across? It was frustrating to say the least. In fact, she’d had just about enough. Edward had told her she could have anything she wanted this morning. And she rather shrugged it off, seeing as how she could care less about anything money had to offer. What she wanted was HIM. So that was the plan… If he truly meant what he said, then he’s let go of his ‘morals’, even if for one night.
Jasper raised his brows and she blushed in awareness. Bella was quick to turn her head and she swore she heard Jasper chuckling. Bella let out a miserable sigh and kept to herself the rest of the day.
“I know you said no gifts but it’s not wrapped and…”
“Oh my god… Dad, I love it!”
Her father reared back in absolute surprise, “really?!”
“Yes! It’s just like the one in my…”
She swallowed back deciding it best not to answer that. She was getting enough hell from Edward as it is.
“I saw you eyeing it the other day. And the record… Well I heard you singing along to this the other day, so I figured it was something you were into.”
“Thanks dad. It’s great!”
“Your mom got you the camera and the photo album.”
“I’ll call and thank her later.”
The chief nodded.
“You’re a strange kid, you know that? You won’t let me make you a cake or anything of the such. Yet you go nuts when I get you a vintage record player and The Doors to go with that.”
“Do you even know any of the music from nowadays?”
She wrinkled her nose on this.
Charlie had a good laugh at this.
“Point taken. At least you have good taste. I’ll give you that much. They had a bunch of these for a reasonable price. If you make me a list I’ll be more than happy to add to your collection.”
The chief couldn’t believe his daughter’s sudden enthusiasm. She usually bitched up a storm when he got her anything. She’d go on and on about how she didn’t want or need anything. This made the first and now he felt like going back and buying every single record in that store. He loved seeing her like this. Charlie nodded and came to a stand. He pecked her on the forehead.
“Yeah Bells… Just give me a list and it’s yours.”
Charlie pulled her door to on the way out and smiled as he heard The Doors playing in the background.
“Really Bella?!” Edward hissed the moment he entered her room.
“You are aware of the history behind that particular band, right?”
“I’m quite aware. It doesn’t change the fact that they’re pretty kickass.”
“You know I hate that…”
Bella snorted on this.
He shook his head and placed something onto her wrist.
Bella went to argue this and he put a single finger to her lips.
“It’s nothing. So please just wear it, for me?”
The young woman looked to what she thought to be a heart shaped crystal of some sort.
“It is rather pretty actually.”
“So you like?”
She smiled and kissed him.
“Yes. Thank you, Edward.”
He nodded and reached over lifting the cartridge off the record. Bella frowned on this.
“This is MY room, you know.”
Edward sort of laughed.
“We got the party still, remember?”
“Come on Bella. Just give it a chance, will you?”
“I already said I would. But you also promised that I could have whatever I wanted.”
“If you allow us to spoil you for one night, yes.”
Bella smiled on this.
He placed a strand of hair behind her ear and nodded.
“Whatever you want, love. It’s yours. Aside from things we’ve already discussed that is.”
“I’m not asking you to turn me.”
He lifted his eyes looking surprised.
“Nope. I mean I want to take that step, eventually. But I’ve got something else in mind.”
“And that would be?”
“I’m ready, Edward…”
“Ready for what?”
Bella sort of laughed.
“I don’t know, Edward… You tell me what does it usually mean when a woman says that?!”
He narrowed his eyes but the moment he gathered the hint he practically flew off the bed.
“That’s not even an option and you know it!” He hissed.
“And why not?!”
“You know why!”
“You won’t hurt me…”
“You don’t know that!”
“Yes I do. We’ve been together for nearly two years now. If you were going to hurt me you would’ve by now.”
“Are you even listening to yourself?!”
“Yes. Yes I am! I don’t see why we can’t at least try!”
Edward pinched the bridge of his nose and shook his head.
“You don’t seem to grasp what it is I’m trying to say. That is not an option, not for us. Why can’t you just be happy with the way things are? Why do you have to push the envelope?”
“Jesus, Edward. What is it you’re saying exactly? That this is pretty much it for us? This, right here? You won’t turn me. Hell, we’ve yet to have a real make out session! And now you’re telling me that sex is just out of the question?!”
“What did you expect, Bella?! You know what I am and the things I am capable of. Do you want to die, is that it? You want it to be at my hands?!”
“I think you have far more control then you realize. I mean think about it. Through everything we’ve been through, if you were going to hurt me…”
He gritted his teeth and Bella swallowed back as he was hovering over her and had her wrists pinned to the bed.
“Think twice before you even finish that statement. Look at me! I’m a predator, a monster… This right here… is all I have to offer. So I need you to really think on that. Is this what you want, or not? In the meantime… we’ve got a birthday party to attend.”
Bella couldn’t believe how heartless he sounded. The vampire gave her no time to respond as he sprang off the bed and scooped her up. Within the matter of seconds they were in his Volvo. She couldn’t describe the amount of anger coursing through her at this very moment. Like usual, he was stone faced and sped the entire way. Bella looked out the window and fought the urge to cry. She’d had just about enough. She thought back to Edward’s words as they replayed like that of a broken record. It was then she truly realized how it sounded. It’s like he was giving her a way out. Something he had been doing since day one. And it was truly getting under her skin. It was beginning to sound as if he was the one wanting out. Just as they pulled up to the house, Bella looked to Edward.
“What is it?” He questioned sounding highly annoyed.
“Do you love me?”
He pulled a face of utter mockery before answering.
“Are you really asking me that?”
She tilted her head waiting for an explanation.
“You know I love you, Bella. But I really need you to think. I get that you’re young and you’re only human but…”
“Only human…” she bitterly scoffed.
Edward sighed as she opened the door and headed on out. The moment she entered the Cullen house, they greeted her with hugs and birthday wishes, aside from Rose and Jasper that is. Jasper for obvious reasons, being the feral one of the group. Rose… well she’d had a problem with Bella since day one and nothing had truly changed. Edward entered not long after and thus began the party itself. There was food and cake which seemed silly, considering Bella was the only one that would be consuming any of it and it was far too much for one person. Each of them had a gift of sorts, but Esme and Carlisle had saved theirs for last. Esme handed the envelope over and Carlisle smiled.
“You’ve been looking a bit pale as of late…” he remarked.
“We figured you could use some sunlight in your life…” Esme added as Bella placed her finger into the sleeve of the envelope and went to open it.
“Ouch…” she said behind a small gasp.
“Papercut…” she uttered with a shrug.
A drop of blood hit the carpet and Edward snapped his head Jasper’s direction. Bella was in another world at the moment. She eyed the blood on her finger as it had triggered something from one of her ‘dreams’. She didn’t see Edward’s hand flinging back her direction. Her body was sent flying back and he charged right for Jasper. The sound of glass shattering filled the area and Edward looked back over. There was a flash of light and this violet ethereal glow emitted about the mirror’s surface as it cast about the area.
“NOOO!” He shouted in a panic as the last thing he saw was Bella’s hand reaching out to him, as the mirror in which she hit seemingly sucked her in.
Bella shot up with a gasp and was quick to jump to her feet. There were people everywhere and they were headbanging and holding up peace signs. She could hear “War Pigs” by Black Sabbath playing. She cranked her head towards the area in which the music was coming from. Her jaw dropped as she saw Ozzy Osbourne and company standing on the stage.
“What the…” she uttered and someone handed her something.
She looked to the item and dropped it seeing as how it was a joint.
“HEY MAN! That’s still good, you know!” The man hollered out.
Bella took a few steps back and shook her head. Her heart galloped within her chest and a full on panic attack hit. She ran throughout the crowd, doing her best to get out of whatever this was. She made her way to the parking lot and laughed once she saw the vehicles.
“Great, now would be a good time to wake up…”
“Right on… Where you from, baby?”
Bella turned to the man and laughed.
“You’re kidding me, right?”
The long haired man tilted his head and took a drag off his cigarette.
“Dig the clothes, groovy. Look, I can get you into the concert.”
“I’m good… Got a black panther party to hit.”
The man curled his lip at this. He grabbed her by the collar of her blouse and stared her down.
“What’d ya say?”
Bella out a nervous laugh.
“It was joke, you now… man.”
She gave the guy a playful hit on the arm. He nodded and dropped his hold. A group of women exited the concert area. Just as soon as he was distracted, Bella took off. The young woman made her way throughout the town, desperate to figure out where she was exactly.
One thing was certain… She wasn’t in Forks. In fact, she in another time frame completely. Judging by the clothes, the music, and everything else surrounding her. It was the 70s. Bella darted into a nearby alleyway and leaned against a one of the buildings.
“Okay Edward… you can wake me up now.”
She closed her eyes and drew back the deepest of breaths. But when she opened them… nothing had changed.
“This can’t be happening…”
Few months later…
“Can I buy you a drink?”
The young woman sort of laughed and kept her back to the man that offered.
“And that makes three. Can’t a woman drink in peace?”
“Well in all fairness you’re far too pretty to be drinking alone.”
Bella nodded and sipped at her drink.
“Here’s a thought… maybe it’s an actual preference. Or maybe, just maybe… women like me get tired of men like you.”
“Tell you what sweetheart, why don’t you turn around and actually look me in the eyes when you’re talking to me.”
“Don’t need to but thank you all the same.”
Just as the man was about to place his hand along her shoulder, they heard the clearing of a throat.
“I believe the lady made herself perfectly clear.”
“I don’t believe you were part of this conversation.”
The man nodded and looked upon Bella in particularly.
“I’m sorry late.” He said then regarded the man once again.
“I do believe you’re in my seat.”
“And how’s that?”
“That’s my wife.”
The man nodded and Bella choked back on her drink.
“Yes, so if you would…”
The man let out a disappointed sigh and came to his feet. Once he left the area, the other man took his place.
“That must’ve been some wedding…” Bella remarked and the man smiled.
“It was. It’s really too bad you were drunk throughout most of it. It’s a dreadful problem, one you haven’t broken.”
“That is a shame.” She said and motioned for the bartender to get her another drink.
“Yes well, you more than made up for it during the honeymoon.”
Bella snorted on this.
“Did I now?”
Bella turned and gave the man a once over. The man was rather tall and to her surprise, strikingly handsome. The woman found herself lost within those bright blue eyes of his. There was something strangely familiar about them. In fact, just his voice alone struck a chord within her.
“Hmmm. I suppose I didn’t do too bad.”
“Likewise…” The man replied and he too ordered another drink. Bella raised her glass to him.
“Well to a good what…. Three? Maybe four years , I’m guessing?”
“Such a horrible memory you have. Try five!”
She managed to smile.
“I believe I can drink to that.”
He nodded downed his drink. Once he finished, he hopped on down and tipped his fedora to her.
“Well it was a good run…”
“That it was.”
Just as he was to walk away…
“Perhaps I could buy you a drink? And maybe we could sit somewhere a little more private?”
The young woman couldn’t believe her own words. But she wasn’t quite ready to call it a night. She’d had a pretty shitty day and at this point, she was willing to do whatever it took to get it off her mind. The man raised his brows on this.
“You wouldn’t be flirting with me, now would you?
Bella blushed in response. But there was something about this man… There was this strange sense of comfort and playfulness.
“Most certainly not!”
“Good. We can’t have any of that nonsense.”
The man tilted his head and looked to be in thought. He gave her a thorough once over and gathered this cocky grin.
“Well as long as we have an understanding… How about… there.” He pointed to a booth in the far back.
An hour later…
“Hmmm…,” the man hummed as he had Bella in his lap and was kissing her.
“Perhaps it’s time we left?”
She nodded as he had her grinding against him. He left a trail of kisses along her neck and had a fistful of her hair in his hold. The young woman arched back and he ran a hand along the area of her cleavage and on down her tummy. There were no words as she latched on and he carried her on out of the bar. The making out continued, even as he hailed a cab.
“Where to?” The driver asked, looking slightly annoyed.
At this point the man wasn’t really thinking, he was just anxious to get to ‘it’. So without another thought he gave the driver his actual address. Just as soon as they arrived, he tossed over the money for the fare and opened the door. She took no notice of him using his ‘ability’ in order to unlock the door. He carried her into the house and headed straight for the bedroom. The man ripped her blouse open and kissed along the area of her breasts. Once he had her on the bed he unfastened his pants. He ran a hand up along her milky white thigh and on up her skirt. With one swift motion, he tore through her panties and tossed them onto the floor. He froze for a moment as he wasn’t expecting a bald pussy. He thought that rather unusual, yet found it quite stimulating. He ran his fingers along her slit and for whatever reason that had him even more aroused. The man shook his head in thought. A small whimper escaped her as he drove his entire length in. He took no notice as he was too far gone.
The young woman bit down on that lower lip and she clung to him for dear life as he thrust. This was triggering something from her ‘dreams’ – the man with no face. Only now… He finally had one – his. She hadn’t a clue what to make of it, or what it meant exactly. But whatever it was… it had her pushing through the pain and she found herself kissing all along his neck and chest. She couldn’t get enough. It was the way he felt, smelled, even the way he moaned. This was igniting everything from her dreams. The woman felt as though she were on fire. The pain was beginning to subside and to her great surprise she managed to orgasm; something she didn’t know was possible on your first go. A low growl escaped him and Bella felt the heat of his release. The man lifted his eyes and gazed into hers.
“Now what was that?!” He uttered looking to be at a loss for words.
When Bella woke the next morning, the man had his arm wrapped around her. She thought back to last night and cringed. She lifted his arm and crawled on out of the bed. The shameful woman was quick to dress and gather her belongings. She spent the entire time cursing herself. This is right here… it was the LAST thing she needed, or wanted for that matter. She’d enough to deal with and she couldn’t believe she just lost her virginity, to a complete stranger. She never even got his name. The young woman nearly tripped on the way out, she couldn’t get out of there fast enough. Once she was outside, she stepped into her boots, headed into town, and called her a cab. She’d plans of putting this all behind her…
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