Chapter 22 – The Calm Before The Storm
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(Dedicating this chapter to 4padfoot. She’s been working hard on pretties for this story and in the process of making a video. Thank you for all your hard work and supporting me in this story!)
Angel stepped out of the bathroom and gazed upon Jax in question. He had their bags packed and ready to go.
“Is something wrong?”
He shook his head no.
“Then do you mind explaining?”
Jax grabbed their things and nodded her direction.
“I’ll explain on the way, baby.”
She picked out one of her dresses from the closet realizing she never bought more. The young woman sighed in frustration and regarded her tummy in thought.
“You didn’t pack any of my jeans or shorts did you?” she asked once he returned.
“A few… Why?”
“They don’t fit…”
He nodded in response.
“We’ll get you some more clothes on the way.”
“On the way where?”
Her husband didn’t answer as he was looking throughout the room for whatever else they might need. Angel finished getting dressed and clipped her hair back. She stepped into her shoes and grabbed her purse.
“You got everything?”
“Yes…” She replied as he grabbed his keys and wallet.
“Good deal… Let’s go…”
She nodded and followed him on out the door. He locked everything up good. Then he took her by the hand as they headed to the car. Jax opened the door for her and she climbed on in but couldn’t control the worrisome look on her face.
“Everything’s fine, darlin’,” he assured before shutting the door.
Once they were outside city limits, he explained the situation and Chibs orders. “And I thought you were the president?” she taunted when he finished.
Jax smirked on this.
“Even the pres has to answer to the MC.”
“I don’t mean to be a buzzkill, but I’m not sure how I feel about leaving Lyla and Op…”
“Hell, you and me both. Chibs insisted they’ll be fine and that they need this time to be alone.”
Angel made a certain face and Jax took notice.
“What is it?”
“After Donna died, Op… he…” She cleared her throat feeling as though she were ratting him out.
“Well let’s just say he rather forgot his fatherly duties…”
Jax nodded remembering that as well.
“I think he’s past all that mess…”
“That’s not my concern. I think it was a hard lesson learned with the children. But we know Op when it comes to things like this. He tends to shut down and keep to himself. And that’s the last thing Lyla needs. If he does that she’s going to think it’s her. And that would be a big mistake on his end. She needs to feel wanted. But most of all he needs to watch what he says about her profession until she’s had time to heal. He could do some serious damage otherwise.”
“I’ll talk to him and see if that’s where it sounds like it’s going. If so, I’ll give him the heads up.”
“And what about Cara Cara and the girls? I mean Jax honestly; this is like the worst timing!”
He pulled over seeing as how she looked like she were about to have a panic attack.
“I’m sorry but we can’t just leave!”
“It’s all been taken care of. I called the girls and let them know to take the next couple of weeks off. They will get paid. I promise. As for Cara Cara, I’ll deal with that when we get back. I’ll find a new director. At the moment, I have Bobby doing the records. I’d have mom do it but she’s got enough on her plate with the shop.”
“I could do it.”
Jax raised his brows on this.
“You wanna help with Cara Cara?” He questioned in disbelief.
“Well yeah… or wherever you need me.”
“Angel… I’d never ask you to do something like that. You might be my old lady but you’re also my wife. That’s asking quite a bit having you help with the porn business.”
He reared back and couldn’t help the struck stupid look on his face.
“It’s just porn, Jax. Seriously, I can handle it.”
“Hell Angel, I swear to God you’re fucking unreal. And I mean that in the best of ways…” He ran his hand along the steering wheel in thought.
“Look, let’s just take Chibs advice and put this all behind us for now. He’s right. We need to clear our heads and make time for us. When we get back we can have Abel’s birthday. Let’s focus on our family first. And once the weekend is over, we’ll get back to everything else. But for now, let’s leave Charming and everything MC related back at home. This is about you and me now, babe. I wanna do this right. And I mean from here on… We got this, darlin’.”
“Okay then, let’s ride off into the sunset!” She witted.
“All about the fairytale, baby.”
“Are ya now, Prince of Charming? Or does being President make you the King now?”
“Clever girl…” He murmured with a wink as he put the car back in drive.
Angel rolled the windows down and turned the radio on as they hit the road.
After a couple hours’ drive, Jax pulled up to one of the hotels. He pecked his wife on the lips. “I’ll be right back.” She nodded and turned down the radio. A smile came about her as she breathed in the ocean air. She narrowed her eyes and lowered her shades as something else caught her attention. There was a couple having a heated argument, right outside a hotel room across from her.
“Oh shit…” She whispered as the woman walloped the man across the face.
It was then Angel noticed the other woman stepping out of the hotel, in nothing but a bedsheet.
“I hope you’re happy with your new whore!” The woman shouted.
Jax reared back as he’d just stepped out of the office and overheard this as well.
“Come on honey! It’s not what you think!” The man defended.
“Oh so you didn’t just have your dick in some other cunt?!”
Jax had his shades lowered as well and looked to Angel with widened eyes. She was covering her mouth to keep from laughing at his reaction. He cleared his throat once he entered the car.
“Baby, please don’t do this! I’m sorry! I wasn’t thinking.” The man implored as the woman got into her car and drove away.
“Clearly…” Jax heard Angel mutter.
But she was quick to gasp out as the man backhanded the woman he’d been caught fucking.
“You did this on purpose, didn’t you?! You wanted my wife to find out! I’m going to lose EVERYTHING now thanks to you! You stupid bitch! You think I love YOU?! Is that it? Well you’re wrong!”
On this note, Jax hurriedly peeled out and was thankful their hotel room was on the other side of the building. He didn’t need any of that shit.
“So…” Angel said with a sigh once he parked the car.
Jax sort of laughed and shook his head.
“Sorry…” he wasn’t even sure why he was apologizing but felt the need to do so.
“Why? You hadn’t any control over that.”
“Still, it’s not something I wanted you to experience on our honeymoon.”
“What would you like for me to experience?” she questioned as if challenging him.
He got that smirk about him.
“Well hell darlin’, follow me and I’ll show you.”
She giggled as he exited the car and made his way around. He opened her door and offered his arm, reminding her of Chibs. She wrapped her hands around it and he led her to the suite. The minute they entered the room, her jaw dropped.
“Jax…” he heard her whisper.
He smiled and nodded as she regarded the room in awe. There was champagne on ice, two glasses set out beside it. And there was a king size bed with rose petals along it, in the shape of a heart on the bedspread. There was a decent sized Jacuzzi tub in the bathroom as well.
“Do I even want to know how much this cost?”
“You’re not supposed to worry about things like that. I got this…”
He put a finger to her lips.
“Shhhh… Just stay put. I’ll get our bags.”
A sigh escaped her as he exited the room. Angel made her way to the bed and picked up one of the rose petals. She found herself breathing it in, before placing it back down. Afterward she made her way to the patio. There was a set of stairs leading right to the beach. She headed down the steps. The young woman bent down and grabbed a handful of sand. Then she quietly observed as she let it spill out of her hand.
Jax had just put their things away and was leaning against the patio door with his arms folded about his chest. He merely watched as she slipped out of her shoes and stepped into the water. He took his phone out and snapped a couple of pictures. He couldn’t get over how beautiful she looked with her dress flapping in the breeze and the waves hitting just below the knees.
“Damn…” he whispered amongst himself.
He put his phone away. Then he took his shoes and socks off before making his way over. Jax wrapped his arms around her waist and had his head resting about her shoulder.
“Jax your pants…” She remarked as they were getting soaked.
He shrugged, not really giving a damn.
“I’m good…” he murmured as he kissed along her neck.
She smiled and turned to face him.
“Maybe we should get our swimsuits on.”
Jax lifted her up off the ground and was feverishly kissing her. Angel wrapped her arms and legs around him as the kissing continued. He started back knowing he’d end up fucking her right there if he didn’t. The moment he had her inside, he slid the patio door shut and locked it. He had her up against the wall as he freed himself. His hands ran along her thighs as he lifted her dress and pulled her panties to the side. He unbuttoned the top portion of her dress and lowered the straps to her bra until he had her breasts bared to him. He wasn’t even sure what came over him. The man felt as if he was in overdrive. All he knew was he wanted her and there was no stopping it. He gritted his teeth as he fucked her right up against the wall.
“Call to me, Angel…” He pleaded as he thrust with all he had.
His name fled from her lips and he felt himself grow even harder than what he was already. The little show she gave him this morning also came to mind.
“Fuck…” he grunted out as he came.
She smiled and was biting that lower lip of hers.
“I think that’s a new record for us. I mean we were in this hotel for a total of five minutes and we’re already going at it?”
He chuckled and pecked her on the lips. Jax pulled out and lowered her back down.
“That’s not even the half of it. By the time I’m done it you, this entire hotel complex will need a cigarette.”
Jax stripped down and grabbed his swimsuit from one of the bags.
“I thought we could go for a swim and order some room service after.”
He froze however as Angel was getting into her little black bikini.
She lifted her eyes upon him as she was tying the strings to the bottoms.
“That’s sexy as hell.” He said as he made his way over.
He ran a hand along her belly.
“And I swear this only adds to it.” He murmured growing hard all over again.
“Jax…” She muttered with a giggle.
Jax bent down and kissed her tummy.
“Why don’t you go on, babe? I’m gonna call Op and check in.”
He knew Chibs told him not to. But he couldn’t help himself. He had to know that everything and everyone was okay. She smiled and pecked him on the cheek before hitting the beach.
Jax heard Op sighing the moment he answered the phone.
“I thought you were on your honeymoon.”
“And yet, you’re on the phone with me… Where’s Angel?”
“At the beach.”
“Jackson…” Op muttered with disapproval.
“I’m just checking in. Wanted to see how you and the old lady were holding up.”
“I’m just fine. As for Lyla it’s going to take some time. But we’ll get there.”
Jax thought about what his wife said on the road. He cleared his throat.
“Just be cautious of what you say and do, bro…”
“Yeah… let’s just say I’m learning as we go. I haven’t a clue what the fuck I’m doing. And every little thing seems to set her off. She’s questioning everything. And when I asked her about going back to work… Jesus Jax, she flipped the fuck out.”
Jax grimaced and looked to Angel in thought. He shook his head seeing as how a couple of guys seemed to be flirting with her. His wife was right all along. Op couldn’t help himself. He should know better than to bring that shit up already.
“Op… You can’t do that. Now is not the time to be asking her things like that.”
“Believe me I know. Hell the moment I said it, I knew it wasn’t right. What the fuck is wrong with me? I mean seriously. My old lady gets beat and raped and all I can think about is if she’s going back to work? Just how fucked up am I? I don’t know what I’m doing, Jax!”
Jax pinched the bridge of his nose.
“I hear ya… But if you love her you’re going to have to let all that shit go, brother. If you don’t, you’re going to lose her. So you need to decide. Are you willing to let this come between you two? I mean think about it. Remember back when Donna wanted you out of the MC? And the sheer amount of hell she gave you over that. You might not realize it Op. But you’re pulling that same shit with Lyla. You’re making her chose between you and her job. You can’t do that. Not when you knew what you were getting into. And now you’ve done proposed. That makes this twice as fucked up. Why take extra step if you know you’re going to have an issue with the possibility of your future? And that’s if she can even work again. And I don’t just mean on the physical stand point Op. This could very well destroy her emotionally.”
Jax narrowed his eyes as the guys didn’t seem to be letting up on his old lady, even as she showed off her wedding ring. He rolled his eyes growing more and more irritated.
“Look, I have a suggestion and you can either take it or leave it. But I made some changes in the way I do things, in order to make things work with Angel. I had to. That’s just part of taking that leap. You have to make certain compromises, but I haven’t any regrets. So here’s where I’m going with this. Wait until the time is right. Give Lyla some time to heal. During so, you need to show her that this is what you really want. She’s about to become a mother to your children now and will be playing a big part in their lives, just as she is yours. Show her that you can be a family. That’s what’s most important. Quit bringing up the job. Give this some time. You both need to rebuild. And once it comes time for her to go back to work. Then maybe you can mention girl on girl if that makes it easier on you. Just be prepared that she might not want to do that. But it doesn’t hurt to show your concern on this and ask if she wouldn’t mind taking that step to ease some of your concerns. This way she’s still working but she’s respecting your thoughts on the matter. I get it. Trust me I do. And that there shows you have a much bigger heart than me, bro. Because I couldn’t’ do it. No fucking way. The mere idea of my old lady being with another man makes me feel like I could go a-wall. You need to express these feelings to Lyla. If nothing else, get her to understand what it’s like. Mention something along the lines of it being the other way around. But don’t be a dick about it just talk it out. Get her to listen. You can do this if you just find the right words. But you gotta think Op and not dive right into that anger you’re feeling. You can’t do that to her. She’s been through the ringer as it is. You’re her rock. And you need to show her that.”
Jax cleared his throat as he actually heard his best friend breaking down on the other end.
“You got this brother. You just need to believe that.”
Opie drew back a breath.
“Thanks, brother. Now you need to go back to your wife and quit worrying about mine. We can talk about this shit later.”
“Gotcha. I love you, Op.”
“Love you too.”
After he hung up he took a few moments to collect himself. He grabbed a cigarette and just as he lit it up he looked up to see his wife shoving one of the guys back.
“Easy girl, we’re just having a bit of fun.”
“Not with me you’re not. Seriously… Get lost.”
The guy rolled his eyes.
“Let’s go…” he muttered with disappointment.
But as the guys were finally walking away, Jax was making his way over. And just in time to hear the guy smart off once again.
“By the way you might wanna lay off the junk food. You’ve got a bit of a gut going there.”
Angel gasped out as Jax reacted. Before as she could so much as blink, the guy was on the ground. Jax was waylaying the shit out of him and the friend was trying to pry him off. Only to end up getting socked a good one.
“Jax!” she called out fearful that he’d kill the idiot.
Jax growled out as he got a fistful of the man’s hair.
“That’s my wife you fucking piece of shit!”
He hopped to his feet and forced the man to his.
“Get the fuck out of here! Both of you!”
“Oh shit…” one of them muttered taking notice of Jax’s SAMCRO tats.
They shared the same we’re so fucked expression. Jax let out a growl and started towards them again. Angel clamped a hand over her mouth in a giggle fit as they ran off like a couple of bitches.
“Are you alright?” Jax questioned once he made certain they were out of sight.
“I should’ve come out sooner. Sorry, baby.”
He cocked a brow however as she couldn’t stop laughing.
“The look on their faces and the way they ran. You’d think they’d seen a ghost.”
“Reaper, darlin’… and they’re wise to fear it.” He said with a wink.
“Right…” she said as she wrapped her arms around his neck.
“Married and with child and still the guys come a flocking… Face it darlin’, you’re too sexy for your own good. I might have to keep you locked away in a tower somewhere.”
He scooped her up and carried her into the water.
“Jax!” She hollered out as he dropped her once the water was past his waist.
He chuckled as she came back up with a splash and it hit him right in the face. Jax grabbed ahold of her and purposely fell back against the waves. He let the water push them back to the surface. But he didn’t budge as she was on top of him. He wiggled his brows as her breasts were pressed up against his chest and he had the perfect view. They simply lay there letting the waves wash up to their waist.
“I bet Abel would get a kick out of this.” He supposed.
Angel smiled in thought.
“Oh he’d love it. We should plan a trip one day.”
Jax nodded. But he’d this heavy feeling and he couldn’t quite shake it no matter how hard he tried. He’d never had it this good. And there was that fear tugging at him. He did his best to push it aside and ignore it. But no matter what he told himself or did. It was there and at times it was so painful, he felt as if he couldn’t breathe and would flip the fuck out. He just knew it was all too good to be true. That he was going to lose it all one day. And he hated himself for having those thoughts. All he knew was that he’d rather die than to face a life without his wife or son.
“Is something wrong?”
He shook his head and brushed a strand of hair behind her ear.
“Not at all, darlin’…”
“But you look so sad…”
He smiled and rolled over with her still in his hold. Jax kissed her and pressed his forehead against hers.
“Far from it…”
Angel snorted as Jax had a noodle left over from their dinner in his beard.
“You have a little something…” she pointed and he raised his brows and took a napkin along the area.
“There you go.”
“I was saving that.” He smarted.
“Oh, well in that case put it back!”
He laughed and downed the rest of his beer.
“You never told me how things were with Op and Lyla.”
Jax nodded as he grabbed one of his cigarettes.
“I think they’re going to be okay, darlin’.” He replied as he lit up and took a drag.
“Op’s got a bit of soul searching to do. But I think he’s on the right track.”
“She’s the reason it’s needed. And that’s all the drive he needs her and those kids. Op will make certain they’re taken care of and have whatever they need.”
“I’ve a feeling that if anyone can help outside of Op… It’s you. Angel, you know exactly where she’s coming from. And I know you weren’t raped coming from a physical stand point, but you were emotionally.”
“But Jax, I haven’t a clue where to start or what to say even.”
“It’ll come to you.”
Angel finished her food and looked to Jax with a rather amusing look about her.
“I ate all that and now I want ice cream. What the hell?!”
Jax had a good laugh at this.
“Well hell darlin’, we can get you some ice cream.”
“I’m going to get fat!”
“I seriously doubt that.”
“And you’re gonna leave me for a Cara Cara girl or a stripper!”
He raised his brows on this.
“Me? Hell, I’ve seen you with Lyla. I should be the one concerned. Or maybe I’ll just hire a new nanny…” he taunted in return.
Her jaw dropped and she threw a fortune cookie at him. He chuckled as he caught it.
“Face it Angel darlin’, you’re stuck with me. I’m not going anywhere. And neither are you. It’s a done deal.” He grabbed his keys and wallet and came to a stand.
“Now let’s get you some ice cream.”
“Better?” Jax asked after she finished her ice cream.
She nodded as she licked the spoon clean.
“You want more?”
“Ugh, no. I’m afraid I’m a bit of a light weight.” She clowned.
He had a good laugh at this.
“I see that. It’s a good thing I’m driving or I’d have to call you a cab. Do I need to carry you out?”
They both laughed but Angel narrowed her eyes seeing as how her phone was going off.
“So I heard you got hitched…”
She had a smile going ear to ear.
Jax peered over looking just as stunned.
“The one and only. How you doing, babe?”
“I’m great. And you?”
“Not so bad. It’s… Well interesting…”
Angel had a good laugh on this.
“Oh I can only imagine. How’s Rose treating you?”
“Would you believe me if I said I’m currently in shackles and locked away in dungeon somewhere?”
“Actually yeah, I would… if it weren’t for the whole cellphone and all.”
“What if I said it was a Bluetooth?”
“Nope you gotta push a button for that. Nice try though.”
“Damn… I didn’t think that one through.”
“So is it true?”
“Is what true?”
“That you’re the Queen of Charming now?”
“The queen?” she questioned with a snort.
“I’m pretty sure that’s how it goes when you’re married to the king.”
“That’s just too weird…”
“Well you might as well get used to the idea. It’s how you’ll be perceived now.”
“Hmmm… as to your question. Yes, it’s true. And we’re also expecting.”
“Shit, for reals?”
“Well hell, he sure didn’t waste any time, now did he?”
“Nope, it’s the Jackson Teller way of doing things.” She taunted with a wink towards her husband.
He smirked picking up bits and pieces of the conversation on Juice’s end.
“He just wanted you off the market. He knew there was no way he stood a chance against me.”
Jax heard this and motioned for Angel to hand him the phone. She stifled a giggle as he had this mischievous look about him.
Angel could picture the ‘oh shit’ look on Juice’s face.
“Oh um… hey… Jax… “
“You were saying something, Popsicle stick?”
“Um yeah… I heard you two got married. I was sending my congrats.”
“So how’s the whole glitter sparkles thing going? Have you blinded anyone with your awesomeness yet?”
“I knew that was coming.”
“Nah, I bet you’re like a bad ass vampire. Even if you don’t drink the blood of a human, bleed, or have that whole flying and fog thing going for you.”
“You’re welcome. Oh by the way… I have the perfect job for you at the next rally.”
He handed the phone back with a chuckle.
“Jax says hi!” she taunted once she was back on the phone.
Juice laughed but of misery.
“So you and Rose?”
“That’s something to be discussed later…”
“Yeah… can’t really go into detail about that at the moment.”
“You can’t even give me a hint?”
“Nope, sorry babe. I promise we’ll talk about it when I get back to Charming.”
“You’re coming back?!”
“Well yeah… Not right away. But yeah, I wouldn’t leave you guys behind. I just gotta do some adjusting in order to make it work.”
“Trust me. I miss you guys… Even Jax…”
“Well we miss you too. So you get back home soon, okay?”
“Will do, babe.”
“Take care, Juice.”
Once she hung up, Angel looked to Jax with a smile.
“He sounded happy.”
“He did. Maybe the vampire life suits him.”
“You ready, darlin’?”
On the way back to the hotel, they had the windows rolled down, the music blaring, but that wasn’t all. Jax threw his head back at a red light as she was going to town on his cock. The outlaw was beginning to see it wasn’t just her appetite that was heightened. He looked down and watched her mouth at work. “Keep going…” He encouraged seeing as how the coast was clear.
“Fuck…” he murmured as her tongue lapped along the tip of his head.
Jax found a secluded area to pull over in. He kicked back and merely watched as she continued.
“Suck that dick, baby. I wanna cum in that pretty mouth of yours and watch as you lick me clean.”
He looked over and saw Angel fingering herself. At this he lifted her dress so he could get a better view. She had her hand beneath her panties.
“Take them off Angel.”
She nodded slipped them off. Just the sight of her tight little pussy had his cock twitching in that mouth of hers.
“Fuck that pussy with your fingers.” He found himself demanding.
The man couldn’t help himself. Something about his old lady had him feeling dominating as hell. He knew what he wanted and he wasn’t about to hold back. He’d restrain her and fuck her through a wall if he had to. At the moment he was in over sensory and there was no more holding back.
“Drink it up, baby…” he grunted out as he threw his head back against the seat once again, in a finish.
He pulled her hair back and observed as she licked him clean after.
“So sexy…” He murmured.
“But we’re not done…”
He laid her down and hovered over her as he fingered her.
“You haven’t cum nearly enough,” he said with an erotic growl.
“Jax…” she called out behind a gasp as he already had her cumming.
That smirk came over him as he kept going and didn’t stop until he had her knees quivering.
Here he is again… Like clockwork… I just know. I look over and he’s right there. Silly as it is, I look forward to these days the most. He’s one of the few that visits often. He actually gives a damn about everything and everyone around him. Whereas the others, they do these dreadful things out of selfishness. But not this man, he does them out of love. Crazy as that sounds, I know it to be true. Sure some of these things are questionable. And if he truly wanted he could take a different route. But he can’t seem to find his way. It’s like he’s lost. You can see it in his eyes. The way he carries himself and the way he speaks to his father. The man his is own worst enemy.
Jax froze and regarded his wife in thought as she slept. He needed no name in this entry. He already knew…
I find him to be the most fascinating person in Charming. In fact, through him I am started to see things somewhat differently. He expresses much love for not only the town of Charming itself, but his family and friends. And when this man talks, you listen… You can’t help but to. He draws you in. I could listen to this man talk all day. He makes you feel as if you’re right there with him. Going through whatever he is. I find it comforting… Like maybe I’m not alone after all. Sure he hasn’t a clue I even exist. But for once, I truly feel as if I can connect with someone. His reasons behind everything for once… Well they make perfect sense.
There are many times I find myself wanting to strike up a conversation with him. But that would be a big mistake. The man has enough on his plate. He doesn’t need some crazy homeless girl adding to the mix, given my history, especially. I haven’t any business getting involved in anyone’s life. I once thought Edward to be the most beautiful man that ever existed. It wasn’t until this man waltzed on through those cemetery gates that I was proved wrong. I was damn near sold by one look. Just something in his eyes… Often enough, I have to force myself to look away. I could get lost in them. There is so much I want to ask him. So much more I want to learn. But I simply can’t. That is no longer an option for me. And there he goes… speaking… His voice is as soothing to me as rain is to the Sahara.
Pitiful, isn’t it? The one thing I find myself looking forward to. And when he goes a couple days without visiting, it’s the loneliest of times. But just as soon as I see him walking up to John Teller’s grave. My day seems to pick up even in the slightest of ways it feels complete and I find myself smiling. Maybe this town isn’t so bad after all. We shall see…
Jax put the journal away. The outlaw felt unworthy of those feelings; given the date of the entry for certain. Those were darker times and he was a different man. He’d made a lot of mistakes. He had a lot of blood on his hands and it only spread as the years progressed.
“Couldn’t sleep?” Angel questioned as she stepped out onto the patio.
It was 3 am and the moon was reflecting off the water. His back was to her as he quickly shut her journal and hid it under a cushion of the patio chair he was in. Jax couldn’t help himself he found himself addicted to it as of late; wanting to learn more and more and because of that he couldn’t sleep.
“Just needed some fresh air…”
He felt her running a hand along his shoulder. He reached over and took her hand into his own.
“And why are you up?”
“Oh you know, pregnancy equals weak bladder…”
He smiled and had her come around. Jax pulled her into his lap. He opened her robe just enough to expose her belly. Jax placed his hand along it.
“Not even born yet and you wanna keep your mother up at night…” he murmured as if to scold the child within.
She laughed and curled up against his chest.
“Are you happy?”
“Why wouldn’t I be?”
“You can’t answer a question with another question.”
“Hmm well in that case. Yes, I am.”
“Are you sure?”
“Jax… Why are you asking me this?”
He drew back a breath and shrugged.
“Maybe because the battle itself is a struggle. It shouldn’t be so hard… Being happy I mean. But there’s always something constantly thrown our way. And I know a large part of that is me and how I live my life. And you and Abel are caught up in the mix of it all.”
She narrowed her eyes as the smell hit.
“Have you been drinking?”
He motioned towards a bottle of whiskey on the table across from them.
“Jax…” She whispered with a sigh.
“Listen, when it comes to our family. I know you and the MC will protect us, always. So that’s not a fear for me. You’ve proved that already, when you took on my vampire ex and his crazy ass family.”
“That’s what you do when you love someone Angel. You don’t question it. You just do your job. You and Abel come first, always.”
“Well I gotta ask… Are you happy, Jax?”
“Darlin’, I don’t have words for how happy I am, but that’s where the fear comes from. I’m afraid of losing what I have.”
“We share that fear. You’re not alone Jax. I’m right here, every step of the way. I’m not going anywhere. And I will always have your back. It maybe your job to protect Charming, but looking after you, that’s my job.”
“Angel…” he started to say in disagreement.
She put a finger against his lips.
“Juice said I was queen… And what does a queen do?”
“This isn’t chess, baby.”
“That’s where you’re wrong, Jax baby. That’s all life is. It’s the survival of the fittest. And in the end, we will be the last ones standing. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again; we’re stronger together than apart. And if we keep that in mind then nothing will get in our way. I got your six.”
Jax opened her robe the rest of the way and had her across his lap as he kissed her. It wasn’t even about sex at the moment. He just wanted to feel the bareness of her skin against his. The man sought comfort in having her in his arms.
Angel looked into the mirror as she adjusted one of her new dresses. She smiled as she ran her hand along her belly. Jax entered the bathroom and nodded upon her in the mirror.
“Looks good on you, darlin’.” He murmured, pecking her on the cheek before he hopped into the shower.
“Thanks. You could’ve slept in, you know.”
“It’s our last day, babe. I’m not sleeping in. Going to soak it in while we can.” He called out as he soaped down.
“I thought we were heading back tonight.”
“I booked us for two nights. We’ll get back in plenty of time to help mom set up for Abel’s birthday party.”
“I bet he’s excited.”
Jax beamed in thought.
“He’s going to love it. You did great in picking everything out.”
“I hope so.”
“I know so, baby.”
“Does this dress make my ass look fat?”
He reared back in absolute disbelief. He poked his head out from the shower curtain.
“Did you seriously ask me that?”
She nodded and was looking at her ass through the mirror. He had this bizarre look about him.
“Oh… My… God… You totally do, don’t you?! You think I’m a whale!”
“Wait, what?!” He questioned with a touch of alarm to his voice.
She broke into a fit of laughter.
“Relax Jax, I’m just fucking around.”
“Shit! That’s so messed up, baby…”
“That’s the point!” She called out as she exited the room.
He chuckled and shook his head.
“And it should have been a sperm whale as much as I fuck you…” he muttered under his breath.
Jax stepped out to see Angel kicked back on the bed reading his father’s manuscript.
“I didn’t realize you had that with you…” he remarked rather taken back.
“I prefer to have it close so I can keep an eye on it.”
He nodded as he got dressed. Angel turned a page and regarded Jax in thought.
“I realized that in my downward spiral of hopelessness, I was actually falling into a huge hole, created by my absence of basic human graces. The most obvious was forgiveness. If I was wronged by anyone, in or out of the club, I had to be compensated by either money or blood. There was no turning the other cheek. When relationships become a ledger for profit and loss, you have no friends, no loved ones, just pluses and minuses. You are absolutely alone.” (AN: quote taken from SOA itself.)
Angel quoted by memory. Jax swallowed back but nodded.
“This is exactly why the club needs to read this Jax.”
“And they will, after you and Op.”
“That was the direction Clay was taking…” she thought out loud.
“And that direction has changed. And it will continue to change…” he assured.
“I see where you get it. Your father… He was a brilliant man. It’s a shame he couldn’t fulfill his wishes for the MC.”
“It is… But my father’s vision will be carried out through me. Sam Crow will find their way again.”
“And I bet he couldn’t be prouder.”
Jax took the manuscript from her hand and put it away.
“MC stuff, babe. It can wait…”
She nodded as he took her by the hand and led her on out the patio door.
“What are you building?” Jax questioned with a grin as they were sitting in the sand watching the waves.
“What’s it look like I’m building?”
“It’s a sand castle Jax. Surely you know what that is.”
“My mother was right. You really are a smartass.”
“Don’t mention it.”
“You could help, you know.”
“You want me to help you make a sand castle?”
“Cause it’s fun and stuff.”
“It doesn’t look like it.”
“Shut up and help!”
“Fine…” he muttered with a miserable sigh causing her to laugh.
Half an hour in…
“What’s that for?” She questioned as he got one of his smokes lit it up and put it on the top of the castle.
“It’s the flag…” he declared with a shrug.
“It looks like a pole without a flag.”
“The flag got burned down during the battle. Can’t you see all the smoke?”
“You know ‘the’ battle.” He motioned towards the little sand people he drew into the sand.
He even had a king and queen. Angel snorted on this.
“Oh you mean ‘that’ battle.”
He nodded, “what are you doing?”
“Building a moat.”
“So their flag won’t get burned down again.”
“They could swim across you know.”
“And that’s what the crocodiles are for.”
“And you said this didn’t look like fun. Look at you… Wondering where the fuck the crocodiles are and burning down the fucking flag. What’s wrong with you? I mean why did you have to go and burn their flag?! Only a cold hearted bastard would do that.”
He reached over and destroyed the entire castle with one sweep.
“Hey now, they’re still standing. Castle or no castle… see?” He motioned towards the king and queen.
Angel regarded her husband in marvel.
“Jax?” Angel softly called out.
She saw the candles about the patio and there was music playing in the background. She recognized it to be The Light by Disturbed. She narrowed her eyes as she paid attention to the lyrics.
Like an unsung melody
The truth is waiting there for you to find it
It’s not a light, but a remedy
A clear reminder of how it began
Deep inside your memory
Turned away as you struggled to find it
You heard the call as you walked away
A voice of calm from within the silence
And for what seemed an eternity
You’re waiting, hoping it would call out again
You heard the shadow reckoning
Then your fears seemed to keep you blinded
You held your guard as you walked away
When you think all is forsaken
Listen to me now (all is not forsaken)
You need never feel broken again
Sometimes darkness can show you the light
An unforgivable tragedy
The answer isn’t’ where you think you’d find it
Prepare yourself for the reckoning
For when your world seems to crumble again
Don’t be afraid, don’t turn away
You’re the one who can redefine it
Don’t let hope become a memory
Let the shadow permeate your mind and
Reveal the thoughts that were tucked away
So that the door can be opened again
Within your darkest memories
Lies the answer if you dare to find it
Don’t let hope become a memory
When you think all is forsaken
Listen to me now (all is not forsaken)
You need never feel broken again
Sometimes darkness can show you the light
Don’t let another somber pariah consume your soul
You need strengthening, toughening
It takes an inner dark to rekindle the fire burning in you
Ignite the fire within you
When you think all is forsaken
Listen to me now (all is not forsaken)
You need never feel broken again
Sometimes darkness can show you the light
Don’t ignore, listen to me now (all is not forsaken)
You need never feel broken again
Can show you the light
Once the song was over, she heard the clearing of a throat. She covered her mouth, taken back as Jax stepped out from the shadows of the night. He had a single red rose in hand.
“Probably not near as romantic as you’d hope… but I think it’s a rather fitting.” He said as he made his way over and handed her the rose.
She smiled and breathed it in.
“It’s perfect, actually. Besides, anything too slow paced… Not really our forte.”
He softly laughed.
“You got that right, Angel darlin’. But even so…”
He took her by the hand and twirled her about, then dipped her. She broke into fit of giggles as he brought her back up.
“Are you mocking my attempts?”
“Nope… Not at all.”
“Hmmm…” he hummed as he pulled her up against his chest.
“Be nice, Angel…” he murmured as they were dancing.
“I’m always nice…”
He stopped in his tracks. The man raised his brows on this as he looked her in the eyes.
“What?” she scoffed with smirk.
The outlaw shook his head as if he were dealing with a disobedient child. He sighed and went back to their silent dancing. Angel smiled as she felt his hands running up her dress and along the seam of her panties. Jax looked around the beach making certain they hadn’t any watchful eyes about. He ripped her panties off and pocketed them. A blush spread across her cheeks as he unbuttoned her dress and let it drop to the ground. He left a trail of kisses along her neck as he proceeded in unclasping her bra, lowering the straps until it also hit the ground. He took his shirt off and tossed it aside. Her hands ran along his abs as he stepped out of his jeans. From there he picked her up and carried her into the water; where they spent the rest of the night making love.
Jax smiled as Angel was kicked back with her head in his lap, belting out the lyrics to Bon Jovi’s Wanted Dead or Alive. Once they entered Charming City limits he joined in…
“Sometimes I sleep, sometimes it’s not for days
The people I meet always go their separate ways
Sometimes you tell the day
By the bottle that you drink
And times when you’re all alone all you do is think…”
Once they finished the song, he reached over and turned off the radio.
“You ready…? Jax questioned as he turned down the road leading to his mother’s house.
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