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Bella rolled over and shot up realizing she forgot to set her alarm.
“FUCK!” she hopped out of bed and grabbed her things.
She stepped into the bathroom, shut the door, and hurriedly stripped down. Bella turned towards the shower and came to an immediate halt. There was Jax in all his glory. And somehow the water running down his body made him seem even sexier.
“SHIT!” she hollered and quickly grabbed a towel covering herself.
Jax slid open the shower door casually stepped out; not even bothering to hide the raging hard on that she caused. He grabbed a towel and took his time drying off. Bella shook her head and covered her eyes. She could hear him laughing.
“Not sure why you’re covering your eyes. That’s twice now. But at least this time I got something out of it this time.”
Bella’s entire body flushed over as she suddenly felt his body pressed up against hers. The warmth of his breath was felt against the lobe of her ear.
“You know Bella darlin’, if you wanted to see what I was packing. All you had to do was ask. Or you know… strip.”
She let out a gasp as he popped her on the butt with a towel and exited the bathroom.
“I thought I’d go with you to pick up Abel today. Make sure that car’s running top notch…”
“Don’t…” Jax said as she was about to make them something to eat.
She glanced his way with confusion.
“You don’t have to do that.”
“It’s my job…”
“Waiting on me hand and foot is not your job.”
“But your mother…”
“I don’t give a fuck what she says. You just worry about Abel. I can take care of myself. You have enough to worry about.”
“I don’t mind cooking for you.”
He handed her a cup of coffee and pulled out a chair for her.
“Sit and relax… I’ll pour us some cereal. No need to go all out.”
The moment she sat done her cellphone vibrated indicting a text.
Sup? You hungover today?
Bella laughed seeing as how the text was from Juice.
No more than usual. You?
After getting their cereal ready, Jax sat across from her and couldn’t help but to noticed the smile on her face as she was texting whoever it was.
Little bit… it doesn’t help the music those white boys pick out. You should hear what the Irish man listens to.
“Making friends already I see?” Jax commented doing his best to push that stupid jealousy aside. He had no reason to be jealous and it was none of his business who she was texting. But even as he told himself this he couldn’t help these thoughts.
“It’s Juice…” She replied with a shrug.
Look I was wondering if you were free sometime later today…
Can’t today. We’re picking Abel up from Gemma’s.
Cool… Some other time then?
Jax noticed the way her smile faded. She pulled a certain face and put the phone aside.
She shook her head and sipped at her coffee.
“Can I ask you something?”
He nodded as he popped a cigarette into his mouth.
“What was last night about? You know… the whole roll with me thing. Yet you left me high and dry so you could get jerked off.”
“I needed to see how you would handle the situation.”
“And what situation are we talking exactly? I mean the part where I watch you get your game on? You know, because obviously me hearing you isn’t enough. Or the part where I’m told only old ladies and club girls go to those little club gatherings? How I’m expected to entertain or go home.”
“Is that what he told you?” Jax said behind laughter.
“Amongst other things… But it’s all irrelevant at the moment.”
“Is that all I get is hmmm…?”
“I have my reasons…”
“Let me guess ones in which involve me not being in the loop?”
“What loop are we talking exactly, because as far as I’m concerned this is just between you and me?”
“That’s where you’re wrong!”
She scooted out of her chair and emptied her bowl and cup into the sink and rinsed them out.
“Everything you do… every choice you make involves Abel too.”
“You think I don’t know that? You think I need to be told that?”
“Okay fine… Let me ask you this Jackson… ”
He raised his brows on the way she said his full name.
“How are you going to explain someone like Ima to your son? Is that the impression you truly want to give. How daddy brings home random girls to fuck while he’s sleeping? I mean honestly, haven’t you heard of a fucking hotel or here’s a thought go to HER place!”
Jax slammed his hand down on the table.
“It’s just the one and that is absolutely none of your business!”
“You’re right… it’s not. But who else is going to reach out to you? Who else is going to make you see the bigger picture? Ever since Ta…” she stopped herself realizing the train wreck she was about to unleash.
“Ever since what?” he challenged with gritted teeth.
“Tara? Is that what you were going to say? That’s right… I forgot you know everything, right? Because let’s face it, you had no life. Everyone else’s business became the only life you had. How pathetic is that?!”
“You’re right…” she said with a shrug.
“That’s pretty fucking pathetic… And you’re right about it being none of my business.”
Jax pinched the bridge of his nose as she exited the house and sat on the front porch. He sighed and looked to the time, knowing they had to get. He dumped the rest of his coffee and cereal into the sink as well and rinsed out the mug. He stepped out and she quickly wiped her face and came to her feet.
“Are you ready?” She asked but wouldn’t look upon him directly.
She started towards the car and he gently took her by the arm stopping her. He said nothing as he pulled her towards him and simply hugged her. He thickly swallowed and closed his eyes as she started to cry. Jax said nothing figuring it were for the best. Once he got her to calm down some he dropped his hold and kissed her forehead.
“We better go…”
She nodded and followed him to the car.
When Bella got to his mother’s she just sat in the car for a moment staring at the house.
“You and I are good. It’s just one of those things…” he assured with a shrug.
She nodded and opened the door. At the moment though, Bella had never been more confused. What took place earlier felt like entirely too much like a spat between husband and wife rather than father and nanny. Especially, the way it was put to a close. She summed it up to the fact that they’d been living together for a little over a month now. It was bound to happen, right? Another thought came to mind and Bella turned to Jax just as they were at the door. She had this wide-eyed look to her.
“Maybe I should be encouraging women like Ima…”
He reared back in wonder.
“Well I just realized… the day you do find your ‘old lady’ I’m out of a job!” she sent him a playful smile and reached over, ringing the doorbell.
“Hmmm, maybe you should stick around. What if my old lady’s a dud in the sack?”
Her jaw dropped and she pivoted around.
“What makes you think you have a chance? You manwhore…” she taunted in return.
Bella grimaced and pressed her lips together before turning around. She gave a slight wave as Gemma opened the door for them.
“Well she’s certainly got you pegged.” Gemma responded and kissed Bella on the cheek as she entered the house.
She kissed her son on the cheek as well but followed it with a playful slap. She eyed him down firmly.
Gemma rolled her eyes with a sigh of utter annoyance. Bella was making her way to the dining room table where Clay and Abel were.
“Don’t you screw this up.”
“Screw what up?”
His mother shook her head and glanced back with a smile upon the other three.
“What did you do the last couple nights?!”
“What the hell is that supposed to mean?”
“It means you had two nights to make a move! Try harder!” His mother scolded.
“What the fuck?” he murmured as she scampered off.
“I’m having a dinner tonight. And I want everyone here, even the boys.” Gemma randomly announced.
“Not tonight, baby.” Clay murmured as he rubbed his aching hands.
Bella couldn’t help but to notice the way Gemma was eyeing her.
“I want all my family here. Beside,s it’s been awhile since we’ve all got together like this. It would be good for us all.”
You could cut the tension between Clay and Jax with a knife. Bella drew back a breath knowing damn well what it was. But she had to play along and pretend she hadn’t a clue. This all went back to Donna. All Bella knew is that once the truth got out, shit was going to hit the fan.
Clay handed Abel over to Bella and walked out of the room. Bella broke into a smile as Abel’s tiny finger wrapped around her own and he was smiling around that pacifier of his.
“Well hello sunshine…” she murmured and that seemed to make his smile even wider.
But there was this painful twinge to all this as well. Deep down Bella knew she’d be saying goodbye to all this one day. The mere idea had her in damn near panic mode. She said nothing as she came to her feet and handed Abel over to Jax. Bella headed outside needing a few moments to herself.
“That… was a one-time ordeal…”
The familiar voice caused her to jump. She turned seeing as how Clay was leaning against the wall on the other side.
“What’s that?” She questioned lost as to what he meant.
He nodded and took a drag off his cigar.
“I guess. Not sure…”
He shook his head.
“I don’t think you understand…”
Clay made his way over and got right in her face.
“Not happening again.”
“You’re my grandson’s nanny. That’s it. You don’t belong behind those walls. If I see you there again I will personally remove you.”
“With all due respect your son is vice president. He has a say in this as well.”
“Not this time girlie…” He murmured and headed inside.
Bella sort of laughed and looked to the sky shaking her head.
“And here we go…” She muttered under her breath.
Bella laughed as Gemma was stabbing the meat over and over.
“Well that’s one way of taking out your frustrations.” She stated as she was stirring the mash potatoes.
“You should try it sometime!”
“Corn’s about to boil over…”
“That’s what I have you for…” Bella nodded and reached over turning the heat down.
“There you go baby…” She murmured and patted Bella on the butt.
“So what happened to you anyhow?” Gemma probed taking notice of the newest bruises along Bella’s body.
“Seems you were right about my old thievery ways.”
The older woman made a tsking sound and shook her head.
“I’m guessing they jumped you?”
Bella narrowed her eyes on this.
“You could say that…”
Gemma stopped her chopping for a moment and made eye contact with Bella.
“Could you not point the knife at me when you say that?”
Gemma nodded and put the knife down on the counter.
“Still a crazy bitch…” Jax’s mother mouthed under her breath causing Bella to die in laughter.
“I’m starting to believe that’s what it takes around here.” Bella said as she popped a piece of carrot into her mouth.
“You’re learning… That’s always a good thing. But you’re also stalling… Not a good thing. So what is it?”
“They were at the shop the other day. I went to get a cup of coffee. I turn around and BAM. There they are just sitting there. The guys were working on their truck or something.”
Bella stopped what she was doing and leaned against the counter.
“Next thing I know, they’re following me out and things rather got ugly after there.”
Gemma narrowed her eyes and reached over moving a strand of hair behind Bella’s ear.
“How ugly are we talking?”
“Being dragged behind one of the vans and getting the shit beat out of me… Ugly enough for you?”
“Is that all?”
Bella swallowed back and nodded. Gemma nodded in return and pressed her lips together. She went back to her angry chopping.
“I was just wondering… because hiding even the smallest of details in something like this… That can do a lot of damage.”
Bella shook her head on this and Gemma stopped her chopping once again.
“So… that was it?”
“What is it you want me to tell you Gem?”
“How about the truth?”
“And what would that be exactly?”
“Clay told me you were nearly raped!”
Bella closed her eyes on this.
“Then why ask if you already knew?”
“Because I need to know whether I can trust you or not. And all you did was prove…”
“Prove what exactly? That I don’t feel like discussing how I nearly raped? Jesus Gemma! Cut me some fucking slack.”
“Yeah that would be nice.”
She gritted her teeth and Bella jumped as Gemma drove her blade into the cutting board.
“I cut that fucking doc some slack… and now look…”
Bella reared back on this and felt her blood boiling.
“I’M NOT TARA! I’M NOT THE ONE WHO WALKED OUT ON JAX!”
Gemma stood there wide-eyed as Jax had just entered the room with Abel. Bella hadn’t taken notice because her back was too him.
“I’m not your son’s old lady. So you can knock that shit off.” Bella said in a softer tone and grabbed her beer as she stormed out of the room.
Jax shook his head upon his mother the moment Bella left the room. “What are you doing mom?” He asked with disappointment laced in his voice as he followed Bella out of the room.
“Hey…” Jax softly called out as he made his way over.
He sat beside Bella on the patio.
“Hey…” She replied but looked to be elsewhere at the moment.
“You alright there?”
He nodded and lay Abel down in his lap. Jax followed his son’s gaze seeing as how it was directed at Bella. You trying to tell me something little man? He thought to himself. He reared back as Abel got this big grin to his face and actually squealed. Bella snapped her head back.
“Did he just…”
Jax nodded. She smiled and reached over running her hand along the top of his head. Abel kicked his feet about his eyes fixated on her.
“Someone sure is happy today.”
Abel got a good grip on his father’s finger and was bringing it to his mouth. That grin never leaving his face…
“Guess that means he’s feeling better.”
“There you are…” They turned to Juice making his way over.
He walked right on over and kissed Bella on the cheek. He sat beside her and nodded towards Jax.
“How’s the little guy?”
The gate to the patio opened and in came the others. Jax handed Abel over and went to greet the others. Bella smiled as the guys hugged one another and was catching up. Afterward Tig made his way over and sat beside Bella. He leaned into her ear.
“You and Juice, huh?”
She reared back at this.
Tig rolled his eyes.
“He tells me he’s hitting that now…”
Her jaw dropped and she snapped her head Juice’s direction.
“Are you serious?”
“Oh yeah doll… he was bragging about it back at the shop.”
Bella gritted her teeth and rose from her chair. She looked to Bobby.
“Do you mind?” She asked as she was handing Abel over.
“Not at all…” Bobby murmured as he grabbed ahold of Abel.
Bella strut right on up to Juice and socked him across the face. Tig died in laughter. Jax wrapped his arms around her waist and jerked her back as she was going in for another.
“What the hell?” Juice questioned as he looked to the blood on his fingers after wiping the blood off his lip.
“Have you lost your mind?!”
“You told the guys you were fucking me?!”
Juice reared back in disbelief.
“Where in the hell did you get that?”
Jax narrowed his eyes and noticed how Tig and Clay nodding towards one another. He gritted his teeth on this.
“Don’t even… Just stay away from me…”
“You got it, you crazy bitch!” He fired back bitterly.
Jax dragged Bella inside. His mother caught wind of this and made her way to the patio wondering what took place. She noticed the busted lip Bella had given Juice. She led him inside and tended to it.
“Are you out of your damn mind?”
Bella’s lip curled on Jax’s words.
“You’re lucky it was Juice. If I had been Tig or any of them other guys. You’d be in the motherfucking hospital!”
“Is that supposed to intimidate me?”
“No, it’s about getting you to use that fucking brain of yours!”
“Oh, I’m sorry… Let me guess, I’m supposed to just sit there and let them say and do whatever they want, right? Well fuck that shit.”
“Think about it… You say you know everyone… if that’s true, then why the fuck were you so quick to believe who I’m guessing was no other than Tig…?” she pulled a certain face and Jax shook his head. “I’m right, aren’t I?”
Bella miserably banged her head back against the wall.
“And there you go… He’s obviously upset about you turning him down. So this was merely his way of getting to Juice. Hell, Tig probably believes you two did hook up. So he’s going about this like we’re in middle school or something. Do you understand why I brought you the club now? You need to know these things.”
Bella looked to the door in thought.
“Clay let me know that I wasn’t welcomed behind those walls anymore.”
She nodded and Jax pinched the bridge of his nose and looked to the floor for a moment.
“Look, you just let me worry about Clay. I’ll get it sorted out.”
“I can’t think of a reason I need to go back there anyhow.”
He raised his head up and shook his head in disagreement.
“There’s plenty of reason…”
“Like what? I mean what is all this Jax? Why are you so determined in making sure I’m exposed to all this?”
“I just need you to trust me. Can you do that?”
She drew back a breath and Jax made his way over. He cupped her chin.
“This will make or break you… And I need to know which one it’s gonna be…”
“But I don’t understand…”
“I know you don’t… but one day you will.”
Juice looked to Bella as if she were nuts as she handed him a beer. She sat right beside him. He had a frozen pack of vegetables on the side of his face where she hit him.
“So apparently… I owe you some sort of apology…”
He rolled his eyes.
“Would a lap dance suffice?”
He snapped her a hopeful look and she cut him a wink. She managed to get a smile out of him but he was shaking his head in disbelief.
“You really are crazy.”
“So I’m told.”
“But I’ll take that lap dance.”
“I figured you would… Just so you know this makes us even, right?”
He raised his brows on this.
She nodded and waved towards the gate. One of the Cara Cara girls entered the area. Bella made her way over and whispered something into the girl’s ear. She handed her some money and took her by the hand. She walked her over to Juice.
“Wait…” he murmured as the girl crawled into his lap.
Bella smiled and kissed his forehead.
“I thought you were giving the lap dance!” He said sounding somewhat disappointed.
“I never said I was giving it. I only asked if a lap dance would make us even.” She called over her shoulder.
“By the way make it quick. I can only entertain the children for so long.” Bella added as she had them inside helping Gemma make desert.
Meanwhile, Jax was off to a corner. He had been discussing something with Chibs when he not only heard, but saw the entire thing unfold. He couldn’t help but to feel some odd sense of pride on how well Bella handled that.
Bella and Gemma nodded upon one another as if in silent conversation as everyone was at the table eating. This had been the very thing Bella envied most when it came to Jax. She looked around in observation. This was a family… She found herself thinking. No matter how fucked up things were between them… this was it. Her father came to mind. He was the only true family Bella ever had. And there wasn’t a day that went by that she didn’t think about him. But in that same respect. It was painful. To think of Charlie – was to think about everything else. If it hadn’t been for her involvement with the Cullens, he’d still be alive. She absentmindedly ran a hand along her tummy as she thought about the child she lost as well. Gemma took notice of this and quietly scooted out of her chair.
She made her way over and took Bella by the hand. She did her best to hurriedly get her out of there. And just as she got Bella into the hallway – Bella gasped back and reached to her gut. Her entire face flushed over and she struggled just to breathe.
“I can’t do this.”
“Yes you can…”Gemma assured.
Bella shook her head as tears fled from her eyes. Gemma cupped her chin.
“Talk to me… I’m right here. Tell me what it is you’ve been holding in… all these years. Why you chose a life of solitude over all this…”
Bella closed her eyes and Gemma nodded upon her son as he soundlessly entered the hallway as well.
“My husband… he…”
“He what, sweetheart?”
“On our honeymoon I found out I was pregnant. He wasn’t too thrilled. In fact… he was flipping the fuck out. He got us on the first plane heading back home. And the next thing I know…” Gemma swiftly braced Bella against her and brought her to the floor. Gemma hugged her close her eyes never left her son’s.
“I wake up in this bright room. There were all these monitors and IV’s. I remember feeling this…” she shook her head.
“Pain… I lifted the gown I was in to see I’d been operated on. I remember freaking out. Thinking something was wrong with the baby. But I hear them talking in the room beside the one I was in. So I freed myself of the monitors and IV’s. I snuck out of the bed to see what was going on. Just as I was to open the door, I hear my husband talking to his family. And it was through that conversation I learned that he had his father abort the child. Only it wasn’t your typical abortion and I didn’t have the typical pregnancy. They couldn’t preform the actual DNC. The baby was too far along. I learned that I was nearly five months along. It was a girl. But he referred to her as a monster – an abomination that needed to be dealt with.”
Jax staggered back on her words looking ill.
“When they performed the surgery the baby was still alive… Only when my husband was done with her… she was no more. And in order to make certain another one of these ‘abominations’ wasn’t created. He had his father sever my tubes… My husband figured it wasn’t a big deal considering he was going to turn me eventually anyhow.”
Bella pulled away realizing what she’d said.
She shook her head.
“A fight broke out… One of our biggest ever… I told him I was leaving and that I wanted nothing to do with him or his family. Well he wasn’t having that. So… I called my father.” She let out a miserable laugh.
“One of the biggest mistakes of my life… well besides the obvious. My father was chief of police at the time and he showed up in his squad car. Charlie he…” She gasped back another breath.
“He entered that house put his arm around me. He was leading me out the door. And within a matter of seconds he was lying on the floor. My father was lying in this awkward position… It wasn’t until I went to help him up that I realized his neck had been snapped. And I mean in half like a fucking twig…”
Bella shot to her feet and rushed into the nearest bathroom where she upchucked. Gemma and Jax looked to one another stunned beyond belief. Jax nodded upon his mother just as she was about to enter the bathroom.
“I got this…” he kissed his mother’s cheek with a simple nod.
“Okay baby…” she gave his hand a slight squeeze, before joining the others back at the table.
He entered the bathroom pulling the door to behind him. He reached over and held Bella’s hair back as she was practically hugging the toilet. It wasn’t until she raised her head up that she realized it was him. She jumped to her feet and was backing away from him.
“…easy…” Jax called out.
He reached over and flushed the toilet.
“Jax…” she muttered against her hand looking pale.
“Please tell me you didn’t…”
Her eyes rolled back and she hit the floor. The man rushed over and scooped her up. He placed her in the tub and turned on the cold water. He propped her head up allowing the water to run down her face. She shot up with a gasp. He reached over and turned the water off. He grabbed a towel and wrapped it around her as she was shivering. Then he picked her back up and carried her into one of the spare bedrooms. Once he got her situated he laid beside her. He wrapped his arms around her and pulled a blanket up over them.
“Is she alright?” His mother asked as Jax joined them outside an hour later.
She nodded as she was leaning against the patio door watching the guys drink themselves silly.
“Abel?” He questioned.
“He’s sleeping…” She pointed to the basinet by the door.
“Husband…” he repeated with disdain.
His mother nodded.
“That’s what she said…”
“As in she’s still married?”
“Not sure… It’s been three years though.”
“Three years or not… Someone needs to take this guy out of existence – him and his entire family.”
“I figured you’d say something like that.”
“Let the son of a bitch see what it’s like to be neutered against his fucking will.”
She nodded looking to be in thought.
“So she can’t have children… How do you feel about that?”
He narrowed his eyes on this.
“Are you trying to insinuate something?”
“Are you?” she countered.
He drew back a breath and looked towards his son. He folded his arms about his chest.
“It’s a shame…”
“She’d make a wonderful mother.”
“That she would…” Gemma agreed.
“But she was robbed of that…”
“Was she?” his mother rhetorically questioned as she patted him on the back and joined Clay and the others.
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