Health Update


My husband and I had plans of taking this (the gofundme) down. But we’ve been hit once again with another concern. We’ve no choice but to leave the gofundme up. I have lowered the goal to 3000. Here’s the thing… They’ve ordered a CT scan for my abdomen and pelvis as there are concerns about some painful lumps. At times, the pain is almost unbearable. But they will not do the scan unless I have five hundred upfront. This was after talking them down from $1,200! I tried making some sort of payment plan, but they made it clear I won’t be seen unless I have $500 in my hand the day of the appointment, which is on the eighth of December.

For those following my family and me on Facebook… You know what we’ve been dealing with and how many close calls we’ve had. It’s been one hell of a roller coaster. All I want is to have my health back and have some legit answers as to what’s going on. So far, I’ve been diagnosed with GERD, inflammation of the esophagus, and stomach. I’ve been put on medications for those issues. But I still have a racing heart from time to time, pain when eating, and pain in my chest and stomach.

We’re looking into getting me some sort of affordable insurance (my husband and kids are covered), but we can’t do that for another couple of months or so. We must pay off a few things first. Therefore, I’m at the hospital’s mercy. Things are tight, and Christmas is just around the corner. Any help is appreciated. We cannot thank you enough for those who have shared, donated, or prayed on our behalf. This has been a very trying time for the four of us. We’d be absolutely lost without our family and friends. (link to gofundme below)


I know it’s been ages since y’all heard from me. But I’ve been in the process of getting a book ready to publish. It has been very time consuming.

Unfortunately, my health has put a temporary hold on that. That’s why I’m posting a gofundme here today. I’m seeing multiple doctors and having to get multiple tests done. We’ve had to ignore some bills in order to do this and are in the hole, financially. Even the smallest amount would help. I’m very sorry to ask at a time like this but I don’t know what else to do.

I don’t know how to post the actual gofundme but if you copy and past the link below it’ll take you to it.

(I’m adding my FB message to this)

Hey guys,

I told you I’d give you an update, so here it is. I don’t have a clue what’s wrong with me yet. But they are sending me to multiple doctors so we can get it figured out. I’ve literally seen five doctors so far and will be seeing three more within the next couple of weeks.

I’m not sure how the stress test went as they made me stop after the first round. My heart rate was too high, and my blood pressure was through the roof. I said I’d go on, but they wouldn’t let me. They had me lie down until my stats leveled out.

I can say with pride I sort of know what it’s like to be Spider-Man or the Hulk since I was injected with radioactive chemicals in order to run the nuclear tests, and I got to see what my heart and liver, all that good stuff, looked like when radioactive. That part was kind of cool. Sadly, I gained no powers from it. 😉

I will know more come next week when they call me and tell me how the tests went. For now, I’m in the dark.

All these appointments are very expensive and putting us in the hole. We’ve had to ignore some bills in order to get me through this. So, please share the gofundme link with as many people as you can. We’ve reached $608 so far. Our goal is $6,500. That doesn’t even cover the actual ER visit (or being admitted overnight), but we felt that was far too much to ask for. Hell, I felt guilty at putting it past $6000, but it’s what’s needed in order to get everything done.

For now, I’m honestly thankful to be alive. I thought I’d never see my kids or husband again the night I went in. I thought that was it for me. That’s the scariest feeling in the world. There are so many things I want to live for, even when things seem impossible, and my depression gets the best of me. I’m not ready to go anywhere.

I love you all so much and appreciate everything. The prayers, the positive vibes, the mere hope y’all give me. You’ll never know what it means to me. It keeps me trucking, and that’s what I need more than anything right now. Thank you!


Warning: This is going to come off as rambling, and all over the place! For that, I apologize ahead of time. I just have a lot on my mind regarding my personal life. Some issues have hit, way too close to home, and I’m worried about one of my loved ones. So, I’m a little bit emotional as I write this.

Dear readers,

I’ve officially started the prequel to A Girl Named Jack. This one will be called Augustus Fall. This will contain the back story on Jack Brady’s biological parents. These two novels, of course, will take some time to write as well as get ready to edit/publish/sell/whathaveyou (hopefully on Amazon).

I will let everyone know what author’s name the novels will be under, when the time comes. Just keep in mind this will take me a year or so (if not more) to achieve. I will be taking breaks in between to read as well. I’ve grown quite fond of J.R Ward and Sherrilyn “McQueen”. This way I won’t burn myself out as I did with fanfiction. I don’t see that being an issue, as I won’t be forced into writing MORE BELLA. I wrote sooo many Twilight crossovers with her that it became monotonous. So much so, I was forcing myself to continue when it came to my other stories.

I took a lot of requests, more than I could handle. Some of which came from close friends at the time (or used to be – not going into all that hell). I felt taken advantage of. The ones doing the requests stopped responding to the stories – as in giving them likes or reviews when they were the ones to personally request the story. It left me bitter and left me not wanting to carry on with those particular ones. My apologies to those that have been waiting for certain ones to continue. But as many of you know, you cannot force these things or it will show. Writing should be fun when it starts to feel like a chore, you soon dread – it’s time to move on to other things.

I have been called a liar, unfriended, unfollowed – you name it. All because I won’t be diving into fanfiction as much.

Let’s just make one thing clear. I never meant to lie. When I said I was going to finish all my stories, I meant it. I truly did, at the time. But fallouts/betrayals with (so-called) “friends” happened, my health declined, as well as other personal events, I did not foresee. Because of those things, I grew extremely depressed. My anxiety grew ten times worse than it ever was, and couldn’t get out of my funk, no matter what I did. It was then I stepped back. I realized I was depressed because I kept going out of my way to do what everyone else wanted, or what they expected of me. That seemed to be the basis of a few friendships as well. It was always me breaking my back to please others.

It was never about what I wanted or needed. It was about everyone else, and that’s how I got burned out.

Honestly, just the thought of writing anything with Bella Swan again, and with the actress, I was using… Makes me nauseous, for personal reasons. I do not have an issue with Emmy Rossum. She’s amazing! And it’s not that I don’t appreciate or love the fanfiction I wrote. I most certainly do. They got me through some very dark times, and all those characters, even Bella was there for me when I needed an escape. That is something I could never regret.

I also made some wonderful friends over the years. Yes, I was burned by a few in the past, but soon learned who my real friends were. They are there rain, or shine, no matter. Friends I wouldn’t replace for anything. That’s not to say I don’t have some trust issues still. I’m very cautious about what I say and do around others. All this leads back to the worst kind of betrayal, and having people talk shit behind your back when you always defended them behind theirs.

I even enjoy going back and rereading some of my old fanfiction, aside from all the glaring mistakes that make me cringe. I’ve certainly grown over the years. And though I have a lot to learn still… I’m ready for the challenge. I know it’s going to be literal hell getting to that finish line, but I’m stubborn and determined. I don’t give up easily.

Things have changed a lot in the five years of writing fanfiction. My taste for one. Readers taste as well. The lack of reviews/commenting.

You know, there seems to be a lack of respect for how much time a writer puts into these chapters, and in the end, that’s what led to my decision. I’m not saying I’m done with fanfiction. But I’m certainly not diving back, anytime soon. I had my heart ripped out through it, and it’s a wound I don’t wish to go back to. I need some time to heal, and I need some time to do what I want for a change.

Robin Amanda, unless she declares otherwise, will be doing the cover art for these futuristic novels, as well as helping me get everything else situated. I will be paying her, of course. I want to make that perfectly clear that even though she’s my friend, aka sister from another mister. I would never expect these things for free. NEVER! These things take a lot of time and energy. I respect that one hundred percent. She was there for me when I was betrayed, and when others weren’t. Robin has been my anchor when I doubted myself. I’d be lost without that woman. Absolutely lost. She will be tagging along on this journey, even if I have to drag her along. 😉

Like I have said many times before, I’m nervous yet excited all the same. I’m eager to show you guys what I can achieve outside the fanfiction world. Now, I cannot legally use the following actors/actresses on the covers or in the books themselves. But I can show you who I have in mind.

List below:

Augustus Fall – Tommy Flanagan
Claire Fall – Kate Beckinsale
Maley Fall – Jackson Rathbone
Jack Brady aka my heroine – Elizabeth Gilles
Robert Brady – Kevin Smith
Rebecca Brady – Anne Heche
Spencer Brady – James McAvoy
Six Xlyander– Tyler Hoechlin
Gauge Xlyander (middle brother) – Tom Ellis
General Xlyander (Six’s oldest brother) – Joe Manganiello
Brent Segal – Joseph Gordon-Levitt
Military counselor – Woody Harrelson

I can’t reveal much more than that.

This will be my version of a novelized comic book. These novels will contain science fiction, adventure, horror, fantasy, suspense, and romance. As well as sex, drinking, smoking, “language”, you name it – pretty much the usual things I tend to write about. Only this time, I will be freer to venture out and make it my own.

As always, my stories are RATED MATURE!

People were asking what I was going to write about, and whom I had in mind for my characters. Well, now you all know.

I will release A Girl Named Jack first, followed by the sequel Augustus Fall.

There will be more stories to come, and more characters will be introduced. I will be writing other background novels to our favorite characters as well.


Wish me luck!

Your beloved clown,


Important message:

Dear readers, 

First off, I wish to apologize to my Galway Girl readers as it looks like I will be a week later or so in getting those chapters posted. An unexpected financial situation hit, and my family and I weren’t in the greatest financial shape, to begin with. I’ve been having some (multiple) health issues (which gets costly), and we had two loans to pay off to top all that off. For the first time ever, I had to turn to my friends, family, and readers that follow me on FB page for help. I gave them my PayPal and Zelle in order to do that.

My family had never done anything like that before, so it was very nerve-wracking for me. I was blown away by the response of those wanting to help. It’s thanks to them we are now down to one loan. I was able to get groceries to feed my kids and fill my car up with gas.

This naturally couldn’t hit at a worse time with Christmas just around the corner. Thankfully, (so far), it seems like my kids are very understanding to our situation and understand that Christmas may be super tight this year. We shall see when that day comes. I just wanted to explain to everyone why things are so off schedule and all over the place.  

Thank you for your time and understanding, 


P.S – I’m working on said chapter now. But give me a few days. I’m pretty rundown lately and haven’t as much energy as I used to have. It will be like that until my health improves.

Update: Galway Girls

I’ve kept y’all waiting long enough. So, here’s the deal. I’m going to go ahead and post the chapter. But please note I have NOT done the final read-through, meaning there could be a few mistakes. I plan on doing that after I’ve had some sleep. This chapter is right around 50 pages long. So, you have been warned. Give yourself time to read, lol.
The Halloween edition within was meant to be a side story, honestly. But my health and my furbaby’s got in the way, and I never got around to writing that before Halloween. Therefore, my surprise didn’t quite pan out right. I got it written though, just not when I’d hoped. Hope y’all enjoy!

Dear Harley Thought’s readers,

Dear Harley’s Thoughts readers, (ALL OF YOU! Not just my Galway Girl readers!)

Alright, I’m starting chapter 60 of Galway Girls now. I’m anxious to get to it. I thought I would be down for the rest of the night as I had a severe migraine and went all day and night without sleep. But a four-hour power nap got me going again, thankfully. I was disappointed when I thought I wouldn’t be able to write tonight. My muses are strong and ready to complete these last two chapters. I should be done in a couple of weeks, if not less (with both chapters). I’m also sad to see the story coming to an end. I’ve grown very attached, as I’ve stated before. This is easily one of my favorites. I felt like I had more freedom with this story, and it was closer to original work. That is a good way of doing it since that’s where I’m going next.

I will be starting that in January. It’s a good way to start off the New Year! Please note this WILL NOT be posted to my WordPress as I’ve done with my fanfiction. No, this one will be put on Amazon. Unless something changes, I will let you know for sure. That doesn’t mean I’m done with fanfiction, but I won’t be writing it as much. I will do updates or new stories here and there. But we all have to grow at some point, and I would like to spread my wings and see where it lands me. I may fail, but I never know unless I try. I truly hope you will support me in my new adventure and give me a chance. I know you’ve grown used to me writing crossovers and things of that nature. But I have to live out my dream. I’m hitting forty, and I’ve yet to publish anything. The way I write will not change. I will, of course, have to get an editor and all that jazz. But I will face that when the time comes. I assume it will take me about a year or two to get something out there. Your support would absolutely mean the world to me.

I was mocked by a few of my closest “friends” *coughs* back in the day when I told them my dreams. I’m here to prove them wrong! I get that I’m not as fancy with words. I’m also not the best when it comes to punctuation and grammar. I’m still learning everyday. I write with all my heart and soul, and I literally pour everything I have into each word, every chapter, and all my stories. Nothing about that will change. I have so many ideas that are MINE. I want to get them out there and show the world. I can’t do that if I stick to fanfiction only. Please understand that.

As I’ve stated before, I know I will lose some readers and followers. But I truly hope you will give me a chance and see what I have in this head of mine. Don’t give up on me just yet! I will be writing under a different name as I cannot use Harley Quinn for original work. I have a few picked out. I will reveal that name when the time comes. I will make the announcement right here on my WordPress and on my FB author page.

I already know the handful that will follow me no matter, and that’s what keeps me going. I pay attention to every like, review, and comment. Some of you have already made it clear you’re not going anywhere. For that, I cannot thank you enough. I won’t lie. It’s a scary journey. But everyone has to step out of their comfort zone at some point and say, “Hey, I fucking got this!”

Thank you for an amazing five years, and I hope to get many more!

Love to all,

Harley’s Thoughts

(Please note I’m not longer friends with those people. I didn’t want to give the impression that it was anyone close to me now. No, the friends I have now support me and truly believe in me.)




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